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没有你的日子（六）

2011-12-13T00:33:00.000+08:00

Dear，我今天重新振作了！

今天blog迟了。不过反正明天都blog不到，这就算作两天的吧！感觉自己有一点疯，每天在这里自己一个人讲话，哈哈！你今天sms来应该好贵哦！其实我回复你不贵，因为都算在你那边你知道吗？>.< 还好你没有一直问问题。

今天180度转变、重新振作的主要原因是因为妈妈对我说的一些话。感觉妈妈真的受苦了！我从今起一定要好好照顾她，一起把不开心的事全部抹去，我要让她幸福！就让你们俩做世界上最幸福的女人吧！

明天就要动手术了，都不知道之前医生说的“休息一个礼拜”真正的定义是什么。如果是不能出街的话，那我只能指望你来我家探望我了。好想、好想见见你，听听你的声音！我现在担心的其实不是明天的手术，我是一直在想着要怎样帮你check你的sims。如果明天晚上没有玩到的话，那个weekly prizes可能就会断了，拿不到免费的sim cash！之前我还在想着要怎样在医院度过那一晚，不过现在看来连电话都不能带去，我只能狂追《笑傲江湖》了。

刚才终于看了Avatar，很好看！周围的人都当我是疯了，笑我outdated，哈哈！如果你看到我的表情应该也会打我一下。

快点回来巴巴我吧！好想你。。<3

没有你的日子（五）

2011-12-11T23:30:00.001+08:00

三天没有得和你联络，是一个严峻的考验。

刚才和家人去了安邦吃鸡饭，然后到Starhill和Pavilion走走，真的很没有心情。一整个过程我都没有去正视家人，一直摆着那张丑脸。感觉自己很坏，伤到妈妈的心，不过还是情不自禁的继续沉默下去。她抓我的手的时候，我其实很想哭，大哭一场。

Dear，我真的不知道该怎么做了。。我还记得小时候我很黏父母。虽然很坏蛋，常常被打骂，不过还是会很喜欢跟他们在一起。不知道是不是因为开始懂事了，慢慢很顶不顺这个家- 一个没有信任、没有说话权力、没有用耳朵聆听的家。而且这个家把钱看得很重。他们常常以为出了一点钱，就是一种爱的表现，很少用心去了解一下孩子到底要的是什么。

就拿这次为例。其实我一直以来都说要看脚先，鼻子我是从来没有想过是酱严重，到要动手术的。不过从年头到现在年尾我说脚痛，他们都说是小事，没有看到医生。一开始痛时我说要看铁打，他们还说回我浪费钱，说一点点事情就看铁打。其实他们根本就不知道我的脚有几痛，就一口咬定我是小题大作。到后来有一次我自己去看了回来，那铁打佬都说，这些伤要早看，还问我为什么伤了这么久才看。结果我停futsal三个月了都还没有好，他们又赖我自己没有好好照顾，说我去跑步什么之类的。如果是酱的话，我不是永久都不能走楼梯了？所以过后我也放弃了。

还有那天无端端被骂头发。感觉上我就像是一个出气筒，他心情不好就可以找一个理由来大声喝骂我。被骂的内容可免则免，都是一些对狗骂的话和语气。他似乎完全不去尝试了解为什么我要留头发。其实上次和他吵大架后，我已经很不想留在这个家了。所以这次他又发癫，我简直不想应他一个字。可能就是这样，我这次真的心死了，完全不懂要怎样面对这个家。无奈就在于我怎样都摆脱不了要用他的东西。可能这让他觉得我还想要利用他，或贪图他钱之类的。

Dear，我真的撑得好累、好累了。。我不懂要怎么面对家里这三个人，不懂要说些什么的。

一个月之前的今天，我们在一起了。。很对不起，让你读了这些烦人的东西，让你拥有了一个不孝顺的男友。

没有你的日子（四）

2011-12-10T21:20:00.001+08:00

今天一整天都很纳闷啊！

父母现在在外头看着《舞极限》决赛。自己其实想看，不过基于很不想面对他们，又再一次锁自己在房间。其实今天一整天我都锁自己在房间，吃饭也等他们吃完我才出去吃。在这个家我真的很迷惑，已经开始有点不知道自己想要做什么、自己为何要这么做。继续下去，我好像会精神错乱。

看见你的部落格的歌词，不知道你post那时是不是在想着我，哈哈！不过，现在用它来形容我的感觉是很贴切的。刚刚和你通了电话，听到你的声音感觉真好！好像大旱逢甘霖，心情又好了许多。

好啦，要看球去。希望我们的球队今晚可以争气一点！<3

没有你的日子（三）

2011-12-09T22:07:00.001+08:00

今天终于收到你的信啦！

昨晚在McD和你聊了，心情立刻变得平静了许多，回到家就跟妈妈讲回话了。Hmm.. 我不是答应你要告诉你看了这封信的想法吗？其实就是在这里咯！看到你的信不惊讶，因为我这几天都在等待它的来临，哈哈！

话说回来啊，我们竟然在差不多同一个时间开始对对方有感觉？！虽然我们俩都不确定那是什么感觉，但看来那场大架是蛮值得的，哈哈。我还发现到，原来我们在同一个时间拥有同一个恐惧感。你说你怕我们的感情变质，其实我应该是更怕的那位吧！因为是我开口说的，而且我也听过向你表示的男生死到有几惨的故事，我当时真的很害怕我们之间的友情就完了。但毕竟在这方面，我是个有始有终的人，我就硬硬的逼自己问你那句话来。

到后来，表白的那一天，其实我有一个念头就是- 不能再拖了。感情一直拖下去，我怕会变质，怕会变成一种生活方式，到时候可能双方面都不想改变那时的情况了。而且以我那时喜欢你的程度，再拖下去我可能会疯了，哈哈！表白后的那几天你还蛮冷淡的，真的吓到我！我当时担心的东西和你一样- 你真的喜欢我吗？哈哈。现在回想起来，原来我们俩都笨笨的在同一个时间怀疑对方！

还有啊，什么“太幸福”的啦。许多人就是太过在意过去和将来，而忘了去珍惜“现在”！别担心，有福气的话，我一定把你娶回来的，哈哈哈！别胡思乱想了>.< 我以前呢，就真的因为你的一句话、一举一动而疯狂！现在怎么变成你啦？

其实我常常在想：能为你做些什么的？所以很多事情我都想帮你解决、你承受的痛苦我都想帮你承担、你的梦想我都想帮你实现、你想要的东西我都想把它得到，然后亲手送给你。可惜就在于我现在不富裕，很多时候想要用钱都被限制。这些观念，其实在我们还没在一起时就已经存在了。因为我想：就算没有在一起，至少我自己知道，我是认真爱过你的。

好啦，我会好好照顾自己，不要像以前那样颓废了，你就别太过心疼了！看了这封信，发觉我们对这段感情、对对方的想法都蛮一致的。差别可能只是：你比我自爱，让我比较少心疼罢了，哈哈！刚才没直接告诉你，是因为怕我漏了要讲的东西。其实也好，可以让我今天的post有多东西写。=P

宝贝，我也很爱、很爱你！<3

没有你的日子（二）

2011-12-08T23:12:00.001+08:00

第二天，真的好怀念你。

刚才你有上网，让我可以在这里省点口水，哈哈！就告诉你一些你还不知道的。其实啊，今天不只Rosnah打来让我推掉那份工。现在的情况是我要做都没有的做，因为医生说下个礼拜的手术后，必需休息一个礼拜。我也好想跟你去看电影！只不过，等我在家呆上一个礼拜先吧。如果你能找一天来探望探望我，告诉我你一些台湾的故事就好了。好怀念你“打广告”的模样，哈！

还没收到你的信，又没有工作，兄弟又忙assignment，搞得我有点闷坏，一直看你借我的《法政II》罢了。其实你留给我的东西还算充足，那些戏、电影和那《笑傲江湖》应该让我挨得过七天，哈哈。在加上有空在这边blog下给你以后看，时间是可以过得。

这两天，我都没有跟家人说话。不知为什么的，连妈妈我也不想跟她讲话了。总觉得面对这家感到好累、好累，已经不想理任何东西了，一整天都锁自己在房间。刚才我还想象了一下，如果换作你来面对同一样的家庭。以你刚强的性格啊，应该十年前都发疯了，哈哈！说笑的啦。不过这家真的不好呆，没什么人情味和关心。

我曾听说过，找男朋友要找一个孝顺的，你要不要考虑飞掉我？=S 好吧，有些东西刚才已经和你chat了，可以省略！况且，我必须遵守你的before-12-on-bed之约。Love you <3

没有你的日子（一）

2011-12-07T15:38:00.001+08:00

Dear, 没有你的第一天不好过。

其实昨天去clinic是为了拿一封推荐信去看专业鼻科医生。今天载不到你去飞机场是因为去了Gleneagles看医生。医生说我鼻梁歪，而且有一块很大的鼻瘤。严重的话以后会影响耳朵和呼吸管道，有睡觉窒息的风险。所以我需要动手术校正鼻梁和缩小那块瘤。手术在下个拜二，不用担心，因为他说是一个小手术。

之前不告诉你，是怕你会有点担心，在台湾玩到不尽情。还好你也没问我忙着什么。记得有一次我驾着车的时候，你问我为什么鼻子发出这么多声音，现在你应该明白了吧。其实，最近鼻子呼吸都蛮困难。

今天不好过，不只是因为检验到要动手术，主要原因是刚才被那所谓的“爸爸”大骂一顿。他可以从我的头发骂到说不用留家产给我。我一个字都没有顶回去，因为我知道我说什么都是错的，结果一定是被他用那雷公声骂回来。我们真的很不像父子，他从来都不懂孩子要的是什么。我的脚痛了一年他都说小事情，这次医鼻子大概是我鼻子发出的声音让他很顶不顺。如果没有insurance的话，他应该也不会理我这鼻子了。

其实啊，爸爸骂孩子天公地道。不过骂到像在骂狗，骂到会让对方去自杀的，全世界应该只有他。所以我真的不想睬他，也很不想认他做父亲。他说不留家产给我？我真的从来没有奢望过要他那一点臭钱。我已经很久都没有跟他要额外的钱去买东西，因为我比他更早决定- 我不需要他的钱。

告诉你多一件事情。其实以前还没在一起的时候，我曾经挣扎过不要继续下去。因为我觉得你过得很开心，家人也很随便，不像我这个呆不下去的臭家。我怕我会增添一些不快乐的因素给你。有时真的很羡慕你的生活，和你拥有的家庭。放心吧，我一定会努力赚钱，我们自己出去打造我们快乐的家庭，不用面对这一切。

其实现在的你正在和我Facebook聊着，哈哈！在你不在的时候其实我是哭着的。刚刚停了，现在想到：‘如果刚才你在我身旁多好啊！’ 又不禁眼湿湿了。至少会有一个肩膀给我哭一哭、至少有你抱一抱。

拖了很久都不敢按Publish，怕你会按我的blog来看。好像以前酱，不知道其实你是常客！真没想到打了那篇仙家关于爱情的post第二天，就和你在一起了。更没想到的是，你竟然在我表白之前已经读了那篇部落格！

希望你旅途愉快！<3

害羞

2011-11-28T22:31:00.001+08:00

The following resources are taken from: http://baike.baidu.com/view/69407.htm 百度百科

羞怯仅仅是人与人之间的不同，它可能是丰富这种形式的一种变体。

释义

基本解释

　　版本一：感到不好意思;难为情

　　版本二：因胆怯、怕生或怕被人嘲笑而心中不安，也可作难为情。

详细解释

　　感到不好意思；难为情。

“而在人类社会，也有人会因为做错了事而感到害羞”

And this is for 惭愧: http://baike.baidu.com/view/817590.htm

害羞 is more like an expression. As you can see, there's a photo for 害羞, but not 惭愧..

I think this should be the only & last time I'm doing this... I feel very tired to fight for myself over such things, with people who doesn't seem to open up and listen, not talking about 'accepting' yet.. I really hate myself being seen as someone kiasu, and I'm proving now that I didn't talk cock.

Please do not be so aggressive over things that you're not sure, thanks.

什么是“爱情”/现代爱情

2011-11-10T21:39:00.001+08:00

我没有拍过拖。

我只是在准备着考试太无聊，想来说说这个看似和自己扯不上关系的东西。因为自己可能还没有真正拥有过，所以感觉上我将说的东西有一点抽象。。

有些客气的朋友说我要求高，导致到现在都没有拍拖的经验。说真的，我不强求拥有爱情，更不会因为要爱情而去找人来爱。我爱的人不喜欢我，对我有一些表示的女生我又不喜欢。自己的条件不好，又没有去特地寻找，没有过爱情是挺活该的。I fall in love, but I don't seek for love. 所以说，我并不是要求高。

我听说过，远距离的爱情是美好的，因为不用常常面对对方，所谓“见多吵多”。少了见面的机会，反而让双方面更加珍惜对方。。不过我接受不到咯！在我这个年纪，可能在要拥有一个女朋友时，想到要和她结婚会有一点夸张。但我觉得我必须要想象到和她一起相处会是如何。。

如果你没想过每天和这个人相处会怎样的话，那我只能说你对爱情不够负责任。其实这就是许多人分手、离婚的原因啊！都不够了解就结婚，结婚后才发觉是接受不到和对方每天面对的。

如果你只是想要一个不是很了解、少吵架，不过在“紧要关头”会出现的男/女朋友。。那你爱的到底是那个人，还是你爱的是那种感觉，那份关心？

现代的爱情可以变得很复杂。因为这世界上多了许多爱情的“定义”。有些人看钱；有些人为了那可爱的脸孔，带他出去可以炫耀；有些人为了他那标准的身材；又有些人就冲着性行为而来。。其实爱情可以很简单，只是人们不断把爱情以外的因素加进爱情以内。

一个你从早到晚不介意被他烦着的人；一个你时常会留意，关心他一举一动的人；一个你不忍心看到他受一点苦的人；一个你愿意为他付出的人；一个你特别介意他对你做的东西的一个人。。又或许，一个让你伤心、让你哭，你害怕失去的一个人。。

这一些，在现代爱情还存在吗？还是这一切都不再重要了。。

那些所谓“新的爱情定义”，已导致许多现代人在追求“有目的”的爱情、一些人受伤害，以致对爱情失去信心、失去了爱情应有的舒适感。。

冲动。其实人生中我们做的几乎每一样东西都需要一股冲动。我们需要一股冲动，拿起电话打给对方；我们需要一股冲动，在许多人的面前说出自己想说的话。更极端一些，每天早上我们懒得起床时，也是靠一股的冲动站起来。。

爱情这种东西更需要冲动。稍微不同的是，现代爱情很讲究“timing”，也就是时间。

“我们认识太久了，不可能。”

从前的“青梅竹马”已演变成现代的“太熟悉”。想想问题的根源，现代的年轻人根本不是在追求爱情，而是一种新鲜感。真正的爱情会要讲究“timing”的吗？

所以说，人其实对爱情要求不高。人是在追求爱情以外的条件，让人变得好像条件很高。其实不必想那么多。。两个人开心、舒服、相处得来，那还不够好吗？=)

今天好像又废话多了，是时候继续准备考试！没意外的话，应该短期内不会再update。再送你一幅图吧！

P.S. Au Kar Hoe, since you seem to be my only regular reader here, please appreciate it & read everything! XD

Kasih Sayang

2011-10-17T23:37:00.002+08:00

A video & a conversation just now caused me to think of the past.. looking back a little on my childhood.. my family.. and also my current life.. I remember a secondary school teacher (I forgot who), who used to joke with students: "tak cukup kasih sayang kerr?"

Indeed, I really feel that I lack of 'kasih sayang' in my life thus far.. maybe I'm demanding too much, or for a perfectionist like me would never get enough of it, haha.. Ya, I may not seem to be one.. but in fact I use to be a perfectionist in many aspects of my life, at least, my thoughts are.. =)

Often when talking about these, people will tend to say things like "hey you know what, you are much more fortunate than the Africans who are in need.. bla bla" so to get things clear first, I'm comparing myself to people who seems to belonged to the 'same world' as me, eg. age, financial, etc. I realised that I don't have a brilliant childhood like many other friends do have; I realised that I don't have a family which I can be myself and share my deepest thoughts; and I have not been through any relationship before.. Some people may just leave 'relationship' outta their life, but I consider it as part of the 'kasih sayang' that many people will go through.. The girls I like I'll just never get.. I had experiences previously that, even if we both loved each other and we knew it, it'll just not happen due to some reasons.

God. God is love. However, I just gotta admit that I'm not really close to God most of the times.. I just don't feel it sometimes.. Anyway, faith is going on.. sharing my problems with God is like the greatest thing I could do in my life.

In fact I'm waiting for an answer from someone.. I don't know if the answer is coming to me one day, I hope it's not too far away, and most importantly I hope there will be an answer, and not just a no ending thing.. I'm afraid, therefore I don't put too much hope on it.. but yea, I wish it would happen.. I don't dare to pressure, I don't dare to ask for the answer, I don't dare to talk too much as I might sound disturbing, I don't know how and what to express sometimes.. argh, I just don't know what am I saying anymore..

I was questioned that why am I not sleeping yet, I said that I'm doing something important.. indeed, this is a place for me to release, which is somewhat important.. *knock knock* I wonder there's still reader for this blog anyway, HAHA! Good night to myself.

2011-10-12T22:03:00.001+08:00

她喜欢折磨人

一会儿对你好　一会儿对你坏

没有安全感

也不会给别人安全感

她爱不起

更怕伤害

最暴躁

最善变

最没耐心

最冲动

最耐不住寂寞

又喜欢假惺惺的让自己一个人呆着

有时候又充满阳光的气息

爱笑爱说话

活蹦乱跳　可爱迷人

那是在她真的开心的时候

她五官或许不是很精致

但她知道自己的闪光点

你可以说她自恋或者自以为是

她喜欢热闹

总会成为聚会的焦点

前提是她想

她也享受孤独

静座在一个人的房间

听着很伤感的音乐

虽然她经常会觉得孤独寂寞

抑或是想一个人

在房间里心情压抑低落

睡觉时候在床上辗转反侧

她也不会轻易打电话给任何人诉说

一早起来

又会轻轻松松的打理一切

慌慌忙忙的拽着大衣

拎着包往外冲

她从不轻言爱

不会撒娇　不会装软弱

不会说甜言蜜语

她的爱很沉默

那并非是因为她缺少那份勇气

在她的心里有一道栅栏

那就是自尊　那是责任

以及现实中的背负

他必须确定那个人

是否可以承受得了这一切的

承受她的撒娇、她的无理取闹

她的倔强　她的悲观

她所有的性格缺陷

且永远不离不弃

如果有一个这样的女孩对你说她爱你

那就代表在她的心里

你的分量胜过了她在乎的很多东西

她不让你给她买这买那

却也会为你私自买给她的礼物而暗自开心

因为女人觉得那是你的宠爱

她在意的是你的心

你若真心

她必然实意

她会经常冒出些新鲜的想法

来调剂生活

她的多变不会让你不安

只会让你快乐

她的敏感在你的呵护下慢慢消失不见

她的倔强被你的保护软化

她的伪装在你面前被轻易识穿

她那样喜欢你的爱

这样懂她的人

才体会得到她的好

你别骄傲

因为没人可以吃定她

她是有些迟钝的

在感情方面

如果你在她还没反应过来之前就打算离开

那你最好别爱她

她从来不需要短暂的安慰

她的爱与不爱是忽然的　惨烈的

她真的决定去爱了

不两败俱伤身心俱损她不会收手

当然

当她不爱了

就是月老下凡也无济于事

所以

别爱这样的女孩

她太偏激　太虚伪　太神经质

太难伺候　太不温柔……

如果你没勇气可以坚持爱她

就别爱她

她想对你负责　对她负责

对自己的过去和未来负责

但请你不要轻易给她承诺和誓言

即使她很难相信

但她还是会选择等待和坚持

2011-10-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

每次平静以后，我都会觉得筋疲力尽。。我想某些事情我真的很在意。 =')

双鱼座 - My Horoscope

2011-09-29T22:34:00.002+08:00

If I were to meet Jesus personally, I think I'd ask Him about horoscope.. does this thing really exist? few days back, I was reading about 双鱼座 on Facebook like a little girl... somehow, it seems like revealing a lot about myself, which was kinda shocking.. =P

【双鱼座の怪癖】
1、没事喜欢胡思乱想；
2、性格与脾气都比较极端；
3、嗜睡，喜欢裸睡；
4、泪腺发达，易被感动；
5、爱幻想，想象力丰富；
6、有些悲观；
7、有较强的依赖感；
8、偏执，追求完美；
9、双重性格；
10、看重友情，爱情；
11、一般很抗拒有人走近，喜欢和朋友不停交谈；
12、经常表现出对什么都不在乎，其实内心却什么都在乎。

P.S. no3 is so not me =.=

【双鱼座的特点】
1、喜欢孤单，又害怕孤单；
2、没有安全感，也不会给别人安全感；
3、爱得起，但是放不下；
4、喜欢折磨人，一会儿好，一会儿坏；
5、喜欢自欺欺人，一直说以后一切都会好；
6、重感情，专一，温柔的星座；
8、爱哭，却从不在他人面前流泪；
9、很善良，体贴，坚强，有时爱幻想，没有金钱观念。

对于双鱼座来说，世界上最重要的东西是感情，一条精神上满足的鱼，可以没有其他东西，就已经是最幸福的人。
任何感情对于双鱼来说都是重要的，爱情很重要，但不见得会比亲情更重要，在双鱼的眼中。
对于鱼来说，感情是单纯的，是单独的。鱼可以原谅对方的一切，只要那个人是真心对他好的。

双鱼座温柔体贴，心思细腻。他们很淘气，任性起来像个孩子。他们有时候能给你气得半死，有的时候，又很窝心，让你觉得他们是世界上最体贴，最会站在别人角度为别人着想的人。爱一个人，对于双鱼来说，是一种幸福。如此单纯的孩子，一定不要让他为爱受委屈。

双鱼座不会耍心机；
双鱼座讲义气够朋友；
双鱼座对待感情认真专一；
双鱼座要面子，双鱼座重要的是尊严，
双鱼座很顾家；
双鱼座脾气好，心地善良；
双鱼座害怕孤单；
双鱼座的优点不是外貌而是气质；
双鱼座很阳光又开朗；
双鱼座不凶很好相处。

双鱼座一生都在寻找一个懂自己的人。当被人误解，被人呵斥，鱼儿只双眼噙满泪水，不愿意解释。因为鱼儿一直相信如果你爱我，那必须懂我。所以鱼儿在一些人眼里会显得有点儿玩世不恭，有点敏感，有点多愁善感。很多时候鱼儿很想有个依靠，去理解鱼儿，会对鱼儿说：我爱你，我懂你。

双鱼座内心敏感，前一秒你可能还跟双鱼玩得疯颠，下一秒你就看见双鱼安静冷漠的做着自己的事。对真正喜欢的东西很坚持，其他都三分钟热度。相信永远又害怕受到伤害，是个非常矛盾的星座。喜欢一切温暖的东西。热爱一切自由阳光的事物，做事坚定，执着、不虚假。愿意为自己的梦想和所爱的人放弃一切。

双鱼座通常感性重过理性，比较偏执，比较极端，要么不爱，要么爱到骨子里；
双鱼座有时通情达理，有时歇斯底里，冷静下来又很心软；
双鱼座一旦动了感情，拿的起，放不下；
双鱼座外表冷，内心其实很热，很温暖，真的成了知心或恋人，这辈子，很忠诚。

双鱼座敢爱敢恨，爱笑，爱闹，情绪化。容易与全世界打成一片，也能安静的让旁人发现不了自己的存在。心情不好时，躲在属于自己安全的角落，希望自己在意的那个人能发现自己来安慰，来疼！在情绪低落时，你的玩笑可能Ta会当真，但是又很容易跟你们玩开。鱼儿一直都是个真性情的孩子。

双鱼的爱情要么爱到极致，只表现出优点，因为真性情；
要么戏梦人间，只表现出缺点，因为不善伪装感情。
遇到优点缺点并存的，恭喜你，这是一条经历过苦逼爱情历练相对成熟而又真正对你狠动情的双鱼。

我不温柔、我脾气不好、我容易生气、我容易吃醋、我容易心痛、我容易胡思乱想、我很任性、我生气时不想说话、我开心了会一直傻笑、我受委屈会放在心里、我在乎了就想被你知道、爱你就会粘你、我喜欢在伤心的时候听伤心的歌、我喜欢在开心的时候和在乎的人分享。

有时候觉得双鱼座很悲，真的很悲吗？因为太要自尊，所以总是默默的承受着一切~！这就是双鱼的天性。再苦，再累，都一个人扛，不想让人家看着自己脆弱的一面。也不想让人家同情可怜自己！双鱼，在别人看得见的地方总是光彩夺目，热情开朗！在看不见的地方，就剩下自己....

鱼儿敏感，鱼儿爱吃醋，鱼儿爱耍小脾气，鱼儿爱听甜言蜜语，鱼儿会在独处的时候瞎想，脑子里浮现那些不该出现的画面，像电影一样闪来闪去。鱼儿没有理由的哭和难过，一个人抱着腿坐在床上默默看着一个地方，猜想你现在在干什么。

P.S. but I won't 没有理由的哭 la, haha...

当双鱼座爱上一个人时就连自我也无法分清；
当双鱼座爱上一个人时会自卑地认为自己不够好；
双鱼座爱上一个人时把自己的自尊也忘掉；
双鱼座爱上一个人时一反常态收起大大咧咧的性格来迎合喜欢的人。
但你不能说双鱼座为什么会那么傻这只是双鱼座爱人的一种方式。

你说双鱼不切实际也好，说双鱼逃避现实也罢，他们都不会在意，因为不变的观点就是，他们在坚持自己的生活原则，等那个值得让他能付起责任的人。要么不爱，要么狠爱。如果善良和软弱在你眼里也是种缺点，那只因你不懂。

【鱼座的情感世界】虽然喜欢结交异性朋友，但爱只会给一个人，付出不需要有结果。也正因为太认真了，就很容易受伤害，也很敏感。虽然表面是是冷漠的，无所顾忌的，甚至张扬放肆的，但内心永远永远只忠与一个人。哪怕他不是值得爱的人，也要坚守到最后一刻。

被鱼儿爱上的人是幸福的. 但你一定得懂:
鱼儿性格很奇怪,有时候超爱说话,有时候可以一天不说话,高兴的时候,会拼命的说话, 不高兴的时候,一句话也不说. 鱼儿不爱记仇,但谁对他好谁对他不好,他还是记得很清楚的. 鱼儿把真实的自己藏于半夜的寂静和午夜明朗的笑声中。

双鱼最害怕爱情的变动，有的双鱼甚至怕到不敢恋爱，害怕激情过去什么都没有。他们的爱情不需要像伏特加一样刺激，也不需要像果汁一样甜蜜，只要如每天饮用的白开水一样就可以。因为白开水每天都会有，味道也永远不会改变，这样的爱情才是双鱼所要的。

双鱼座的人―
很敏感，看似什么都不计较、不细心，其实是在包容你，所以会装作什么都不知道。双鱼座的人很正义，讨厌虚伪、谎言，讨厌欺骗。双鱼座的人吃软不吃硬，要知道座双鱼脾气很硬，不会允许别人的不信任和挑战。
双鱼座的人―
很重感情，只要是真心认定的朋友，都会真心对待。

双鱼座的致命弱点：
脾气有点大，表面温和到别人误以为很好欺负，其实内心脾气大的可怕。性格矛盾分裂，自尊超强。太现实了，认真，看问题太透。孤独，缺乏安全感，自闭，忧郁。爱太深，比较容易受伤，受伤就选择逃避。喜欢乱想，想太多，爱纠结，超倔强。

P.S. freaking true =.=

【双鱼座】
乐于帮助别人，并不在意回报，但是有时间限制，一旦超时，满腔热情就会在顷刻间冷却。别人讲给自己的秘密绝不会泄露出去，所以常常被当做倾诉秘密的垃圾筒。崇拜强者,但不崇拜金钱和权势。爱撒娇，但只对亲近的人才有所表现。

有人说，别轻易和双鱼座谈恋爱，这是事实，因为双鱼座总是拿自己的全部去赌爱情，如果你没有办法把爱情当成自己的全部，就别和他（她）们赌，否则最后，虽然败俱伤，但是，你永远不知道，在双鱼的心中，这道伤痕划下的有多深，更不知道自己得付出多少代价！

会因爱情改变自己的星男

第一名：双鱼座

改变指数：★★★★★

说到变化，恐怕没有人能比双鱼座的人变得更快。双鱼座是兼具所有星座优缺点的星座，他们不光在平时的生活中可以展现出自己的多面性格，在面对一份爱情时，不能离开爱情的双鱼男，更是痴情男的代表，他们敏感的心思，能感受到对方的喜好，从而根据对方的喜好而改变自己，这种改变对对他们而言，是很有必要的，而且十分容易。

I know some of them sounds a bit geli, but true words from your heart memang a bit geli one, don't you agree? XD

2011-08-25T19:56:00.003+08:00

我怀疑我已经有一点精神分裂，我不想，真的不想。。很有冲动要在今晚灌晕自己。

所谓的假期

2011-07-22T23:53:00.008+08:00

眨眼间这三个礼拜的假期就要完毕了。

放假的第一天，也就是考完试的第二天我就开始打工。这三个礼拜就这样一直帮smartreg打工打到要开学了。=.= 没什么休息到，不过之前说过很想找一样东西麻醉自己，还总算做到了。最近酱勤劳的其中一个原因就是爸爸真的即将退休了，家里开始断了钱粮。不知道正在读着这篇部落格的你会不会觉得恐怖，这件事对我来说却是一件超恐怖的事。

头两个星期一直在做data entry，特别是头个星期。每张纸打完了就赚得RM0.20/RM0.30，那种平均每分钟赚得RM0.20/RM0.30的过程还让我觉得过得蛮充实的。也让我意识到，钱真的是要把握时间赚回来的。不过不知做什么鬼的，我这个人真的是赚多少就用多少。工钱还没拿到，就已经欠了一大笔债。估计还了那笔债后也不会存得太多“个人娱乐”的钱。

说起来，最近真的很麟“黑”！miss巴士都会连miss三天，从来没试过。早出门，谁知道那辆“wan吉”的巴士走到慢到死。=.= 算了吧，讲出来都没人会信。前几天去看铁打，那个师傅突然间帮我zut脚，zut到一半才告诉我zut一次要三十块。无端端就给他wat了三十块。昨天在巴士多手去开电话的data上网一下，好像不到两分钟credit就少了十块钱，当时整个人真的呆了一下。还有，最近真的穷到扑街，我现在的全副身家只有钱包的两块钱，明天就会拿去搭巴士。银行剩下六块，电话剩下三角半，哈哈！

不是没穷过，不过没钱到酱真的是第一次。说实在的，没钱没运我是很习惯了，因为在我心中朋友 - 友情还是排第一。前两天心情很差的时候，找来几个兄弟聊了几聊，心情立刻好到爆炸。离开了朋友，回到了那个“超现实”的世界，我真的可以在几秒钟内down到变成另外一个人。拼命工作虽然让我过得还算充实，不过遇到一些“不友善”的同事还真的蛮想吐血的。尤其是那些女的！很想告诉她们说：这世界是没有男人是怕女人的，只有还保留一点对女人的尊重和真的很懒得跟女人吵架的男人，还有多了你们这些自以为是的女人。

最近其实还有一件超烦的事，不过不想在这里讲。我觉得读我部落格的人都会觉得好烦，哈哈！不过确实的，我最近真的很麟烦。时常都是烦到极限了才来这部落格发泄。=.= 总觉得我这人特别失败。没有样，没有身材，没有高度，读书运动半lang kang，工作错误多，记忆差，学习慢。。最重要的，我好像失去了以前曾经拥有的自信，和那一团“火”。。

可能我还算有一颗蛮善良的心，不过在这个社会上那是拿来喂狗的。

Calling off a day

2011-06-10T01:35:00.000+08:00

It's my 1st day of 'study break' for sem3... well, no progress on studies.. few episodes of 三国.. discovering some iPhone apps.. received a bad news.. Facebook & chatting all night long..

was asked a lot questions by a friend just now.. and ya, after answering those questions, I realise I'm a rather lonely person.

ouh~ good night!

3 John

2011-04-09T21:53:00.001+08:00

Due to the assignments due last week, I skipped church service on the Sunday. Felt bad, therefore I made an apology to God during the prayer before I sleep. I think it was around 5am and I was in the blur-ness after completing my assignment. During the prayer I eventually made 3 promises (which were made kinda automatically @.@):

1) Go to church next week
2) Organise my time better
3) Read a book of the bible this week

Eventually I somehow completed the 2nd task and just completed the 3rd task a moment ago. Lazy me, I actually google-d for the shortest book in the bible to read! XD and it was 3 John. Received a key message from the book, type down here so that I could remember it better.

Verse 11:
"My dear friend, do not imitate what is bad, but imitate what is good. Whoever does good belongs to God, whoever does what is bad has not seen God."

Hope that I will read the bible more often, Amen.

成长。。

2011-02-23T01:46:00.005+08:00

我21岁了！

记得小时候，心里面总是想着：天啊！我好想赶快长大啊！想不到，就当自己还在回想起以前时，不知不觉，这个许多人关注的生日已经过去了。我，真的长大了吗？

大概几天前，看着生日越来越靠近时，不知为什么，一点兴奋的感觉都没有！当时我反而有一种恐惧感，恨不得生日别那么快到来。当然，作为世上最公正的时间，还是把我带到了这个大家所谓的“成人”年龄。

比起去年，今年可说是没什么庆祝啦。早在数星期前，父母不断问我要不要庆祝。所谓的庆祝，基本上就是请些朋友来共度一餐。我想了想，觉得还是不要吧！不知为什么我人最近变得孤僻一点。。哈！说笑的啦。我是想到要省钱，替爸爸省些请吃的钱，替身边朋友省些买礼物的钱。结果，还是有一些兄弟约我出来庆祝啦！他们还替我买下了一把心仪的吉他，虽然不怎么惊喜，但还是非常感谢d！（不便宜叻）父母晚上也带了一家人去锯扒。

记得去年的那个时候，我与一班兄弟在TGI庆祝了一番。College 一班朋友还突击现场，真的有一点吓到，有一点感动。还记得那天我喝到烂醉才回家，度过了一个完美的“二字头"生日。当时的我，对来临的一年是充满了憧憬，充满了希望。。不是就因为那场庆祝会啦！只是想表达下当时的心态。当时，也是我渐渐投入一段不堪回首的感情的时候。。

一年过去了，人事已非。感觉身边的人都变了，自己也变了许多。我常很庆幸自己看东西很透，朋友们有时也会找我分析他们的状况。但这一年来，我反而恨自己看透了身边许多的人事物。就如一座显微镜，看到别人身上的一切灰尘，油渍！到某种程度，我可以当场说出一个人的五六个优点或缺点。结果，搞到我会有时不经意地疏远一些“不喜欢”的人。。

当然我自己并不完美啦！这一年来，经过一些对我来说重大的挫折以后，我还发现自己多了个自虐的倾向，时常逼自己不停地做一些不喜欢做的事，不健康的事。睡眠越来越差，睡觉时间也颠倒了。（昨晚我大概5am才睡着，哈！）所以今年许下了一个蛮特别的愿望。。这个愿望是绝对需要自己努力达成的，就是：好好做人，做个好人。

“好好做人”，指的就是要好好地生活啦！来年想要把多一点的心机放在课业上，多点运动，早一点睡，玩多一点音乐！对某些人来说，这些可能不算是什么。但对我这个颓废人士来说，可说是大跃进！那“做个好人”呢，其实是为了提醒自己，还有为身边的朋友们许的愿。很多时候，我们可能都为了自己的某些利益，某些喜好，而直接或间接地伤害到身边的人。希望大家会多一点检讨自己，扔掉尽多的缺点，做一个更好的人。

祝福自己，也祝福大家。。

New friend in FB

2011-02-08T00:33:00.003+08:00

Early in the morning (5am) yesterday, I added a new friend in FB.. She has got no mutual friend with me in fact, I was a little curious and accepted the friend request..

Ok, I was being long winded, just wanna share some of her status actually, found them interesting.. =P

你的一声呵斥虽出自本能，但也吓了一个天才。许多父母都会犯错这样的错误，他们总是以自己的经验来约束孩子的好奇心，于是孩子踏上的也只能是和父母一样的道路。

只要做了乞丐就没有假的，因为他伸手要钱的时候，心情就是乞丐。心情是乞丐的人，即使他四肢完好，体魄健壮，家财万贯，也仍然是个乞丐，便值的同情，值的施舍。同样的，一个穷人只要有富有的心情，他就是一个富人了。

說了又不聽→聾，聽了又不懂→笨，不懂又不問→啞，問了又不做→懶，做了又做錯→蠢，錯了又不認→瞎，認了又不改→驢，改了又不服→爛，不服又不說→賤

I find them really interesting, perhaps I should keep this friend though I really have no idea who's she, haha! XD

Holiday 1 & 2

2010-11-30T22:23:00.002+08:00

I spent my time in a camp for 2 days 2 nights right after my exam.. so, i consider my holiday started on 28th.. XD

Holiday 1 (28th of November 2010):

Iac is leaving soon, we had our testimonial badminton match before he'll be back to Sarawak this day.. =P due to the reason that we had more people for 2 courts, we actually played 3hours @.@ rather tired, but was so glad that I finally got myself a proper racket, wooo... time to train properly to become a better player! Anyway, the badminton shop auntie who wrapped handle for me said my racket is weak =(

Iac reminded me about the RM40 survey @MV. I made a call to the survey officer and she told us that she still need people! And therefore me mei kelvin went MV after badminton. In the end we got the RM40, after giving some *ahem* useful comments on drinks packaging, haha! we also got ourselves registered into an event job on coming Saturday, hopefully another easy income, eh heh~

and ya, I've got myself the FIFA 2010!!! Woooooooo~ and spent RM20 to pump petrol for my mum's car. Petrol + parking + fifa + misc., there goes my RM40 I think.. XD

Holiday 2 (30th of November 2010):

which is today. =o

I went MV again eh heh~ this time round together with Ron & Kian.. I brought them there to do the RM40 survey, how good I am!! =) spent some time there to catch up, chit chat.. gosh, it's so fun to have close friends around.

woke up at 11am today, spent few hours at MV, dinner, here am I now.. after this post, gotta spend some time to update my BB work and arrange my schedule.. and Fifa before I sleep.. =P

I'm back to expose my life again.. I start wondering, the time I used to appreciate life more, improve more, was it partly because of I blogged? you know, blogging about your life, somehow lead you to thoughts of 'how great my life is' and it's also like an evaluation after the day..

Anyway, recently I'm kinda pissed due to some behaviour of some people again.. wonder why I got influenced so easily.. It's time for me to pray more, go more church, to get closer with God again.. I know people out there have various reasons to go to church.. For me,

I go church to find peace in mind..

Money

2010-11-28T23:14:00.005+08:00

halo =P

i'm back again for don't know what reason.. anyway.. I've just started my 3 monthsss hooooooooolliiiiday, woooohoo!

wonder why every time when comes to holiday, I tend to be 8 gua to ask people around, what's their plan for holiday.. and guess what, you know the answer: WORK LO

work = income, = life? I mean, why la.. more & more people nowadays take work or money to be their main focus of life.. perhaps at this point, I'm the weird one =D i always try to look for some entertainment, gathering during my holiday.. kinda sad as well, as some of my close friends will tend to go back hometown during long holiday, it makes me miss schooling then.. =x

yes, i'm such a weirdo who thinks a lot.. i started to think about my life since around 16 years old.. after all, what's the point of working hard like a mad cow for your whole life? in fact the most precious things on the earth, to me, are: love & joy.. I'm trying hard not to bring in Christianity at this point.. but THINK.. something can actually be found, without $.

I even have a thought of doing some job that can benefit the world, not some *ahem* easy money like Axxxy company..Just a thought, at my age now, haha..

Don't get me wrong, I still love money like you do, since it can bring satisfactions.. =D I will still work during holidays, I will still feel wah-so-happy-that-i-got-so-much-money-to-use.. just that.. PRIORITY in ur mind.. i always set priority in every aspect of my life, don't know about you la... I'm not trying to change your mindset and tell the world that I have a brilliant thought that you've never come accross.. I just, wish to share it out.. perhaps it can lead to some further thoughts, to some of you? I don't know.

Like now, my priority is to watch football.. =P

P.S. I was definitely NOT referring to people who lives in family that is crucial in need of money.. anyway the things I wanna express in this post, I guess you know what I mean. =P

Again

2010-09-30T17:03:00.001+08:00

*Blog post deleted*

Too emo, so not me when I read back..

My Raya Holiday

2010-09-21T00:10:00.009+08:00

Last week was a rather special week for me, as it's my holiday and my parents were away to Shang-Hai...

Initially I had the thought of 'PLAY TO THE MAX', like what you all think after reading the sentence above... For sure, I gotta admit, I went out frequently la... =P However, I actually learned some values through the time...

I'd never concern about whether I'll have sufficient money to spend for 'tomorrow', never need to spend some time to settle some house work everyday, never thought that how would my life be when I'm alone, and the list goes on...

In the end, I managed to cope as well... I feel quite comfortable to live alone, in fact... =P *ahem* No doubt with parents around, many things are solved without my concern... That's how important a family is! Helping each other, and carry out respective tasks during the day to sustain the family... That's how important a woman is also... Nah, just a random thought..

Another thing is that, I could attend church and bible study like nobody's business during the week... Learned some values and gain more 'wisdom' throughout the week... Not sure whether I'd used the correct description, because I feel that in fact these things are in everyone's heart.. Just that sometimes we tend to forget or ignore...

Chong Yang, Simon, Kar Hoe, Jian Shen & Addi came over my house for BBQ last Wednesday night... Had lots of fun especially the takei session @Kosas after that... Sometimes I feel very grateful to have friends like this.. The 'friends' I mean are, friends who need not to be the ones to have heart-to-heart talk always, but just have fun together and catch up a little... Eventually, I felt so released...

I think I'd played much in the week... 2 difficult weeks coming up! I shall plan my time well and start focusing in studies...

Helpless (2)

2010-09-01T21:22:00.001+08:00

This post is plainly to make an update on previous post... Should be something good I assume?

My sis resignation was hold on, because the new boss is asking my sis to stay on, for at least a month more, ha! It's the transaction period for the company I guess.. Well, no matter what the result will be a month later: stay on, add salary, better offer outside.. Most importantly, I see a smile in my sis again after 2 days.. =)

As for my dad, he has revealed the possibility of his retirement by end of this year.. It would be the cut off of the family's income, but somehow.. I feel good for my dad, it's really time for him to relax!

In these 2 days, I didn't manage to focus in my prayer.. However, with His mercy on this family, I see changes.. Or perhaps, someone outside had been praying for me? =P A big thanks to you then!!

Helpless

2010-08-30T22:37:00.000+08:00

My sis just informed the the family that she's resigning from YTL soon.

It's due to reason that the boss/person-in-charge kept hinting that the company need to cut staff.. My sis's boss had recently just left the company and it's my sis's turn now? Company like this won't just sack you off, instead, show expressions & hint with sarcastic sentences..

And now, she's about to resign..

My dad on the other hand, is still working, despite of his retiring age... He has been staying at this house for more than 20 years, I know that one of his dreams must be switching to a new house.. but..

I'm really helpless in a lot of things at my current age, and situations..

Something

2010-08-11T23:27:00.004+08:00

I don't feel like letting many people to know this initially.. I typed something previously, but in the end I deleted... Now that I think, not many people will read this inactive blog anymore, and probably you'd only glance thru this blog once or twice and not anymore.. So I'll do it this time round..

I know you don't feel good recently, so do I (I didn't manage to hide my emotions at all)... Insomnia has been bothering me for more than a month, mainly due to the same matter... Recently it has been especially serious, slept only 1 hour last night, all the way till now... Nowadays I've been always seeking for something to waste a lot energy on, sports have been my favourite.. I really have got no choice, I tried cool down and think... but ended up I dropped tears, automatically.. Therefore, I'll have to make myself to almost-faint condition before going to bed everyday...

I wish I could do it like normal, just like I did in the beginning... However, I just realised that it couldn't be the way... If I continue to do so, I will only fall in love more & more.. hurt deeper & deeper... Very sorry, I chose to be selfish, just to make sure myself can let go everything in the shortest time I could do... I think I'd never love someone so deep before, what more it's on a girl which doesn't seem to be 'the-girl-I-want'... It's all depend on feelings.. VERY strong feelings...

People always say there are 2 sides in ourselves... I believe there is now... As within myself, I struggle a lot nowadays... I could simply go emo, because I didn't know what to do, how should I react to the situations... Most importantly, I realised I still care a lot...

Sorry, just give me some time.. I will try to make everything back to 'normal'..

Woo~

2010-07-25T01:58:00.009+08:00

Hmm.. suddenly feel like typing something, just a random one? =P

Today's a rather packed day, especially with the reason that I woke up quite late, haha! I'd attended a saxophone workshop @Yamaha school in the afternoon... Woo~ Sounds damn cool rite?

NO! It wasn't as cool as I'd thought, haha... Ok la, it's not bad either... I said that because it's more to a revision kind of talk to me... I wanted to attend it because I thought it would focus on jazz... T.T However, it didn't really touch on jazz but more to playing a good sound...

Feel that 1stKL band is really blessed, as we had someone teaching/reminding us about the things-we-should-know, thought by the seminar... Oh well, almost forgotten to intro the teacher... Julian Chan! A real cool JAZZ player... =D Perhaps the most interesting part about the workshop is hearing him play songs, haha!

P.S. I'm not saying that I'm very good in the things that were thought! XD Just that, knowledge wise, it's there... Teehee!

As for the evening, I was driving my little Kembara to drop and pick people around... Was driving around Kelana Jaya, KL, Bukit Jalil and of course Cheras for the entire day... I used up 2 & half level of the petrol at the end of the day... =.=" Anyway, after 2 years plus, amazingly my passion of driving is still there... Therefore, in fact, I didn't feel my time actually wasted on the road... Is it a good thing? Haha!

For the night, I was in Stadium Putra with friends, witnessing the Astro singing competition final... All thanks to Alvin (one of the finalists) who gave us the tickets! After the competition, chill awhile @Steven's Corner, OUG... And, here am I! =)

Nevertheless, I enjoyed this day... ^^

爱很简单

2010-07-13T02:27:00.014+08:00

忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你
有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单

爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日也去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......

I LOVE YOU
无法不爱你 BABY
说你也爱我
I LOVE YOU
永远不愿意 BABY
失去你

不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单

爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日也去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......
I LOVE YOU
我一直在这里 BABY
一直在爱你
I LOVE YOU, YES I DO
永远都不放弃
这爱你的权利

如果你还有一些困惑
OH NO
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着
爱你
YES I DO

Tioman

2010-07-10T01:38:00.011+08:00

What do you think bout this? =)

Just gotta be frank, Tioman isn't as great as I thought! Haha... Heard that Redang is much better, more beautiful fishes!!

As for the trip, it was good! I was there with another 17 classmates, one boyfriend + one very cool tour guide called Albert... XD He was the one who drink for the whole day and beat me flat for pool... =.="

Anyway, perhaps we've only known each other for a semester/14weeks, we didn't really mix well in a big gang... Still, I can't deny that this trip is enjoying!

A stop on the way to the jetty

Yea, we were taking midnight bus and the photo was taken at around 2am... XD I was kinda tired and about to fall asleep... The next moment, the driver stopped at this mamak... Surprisingly, my classmates were all energetic and start having their tea + 'cho di' session... =.="

Another scenery of Tioman

I wouldn't go into details on this trip, I'm lazy to, ha! I've abandoned this blog for quite some time and I find it rather difficult to actually start typing again about my life...

Activities for this trip were: snorkeling, waterfall, beach volleyball, fish feeding, drinking, watching football, gambling... Wonder I've missed out any~ Anyway, I'm so sorry for the lack of inspiration in elaborating them...

Recently, I'd been praying a lot on getting clearer directions in my life... After this trip, I find that God is just so amazing and my prayers were answered... I managed to get my mind relax throughout the trip & shared some of my feelings to my friends... After the problems were shared, I started realising that some of them are not as bad as I thought actually... God has changed my perspective, in a way?

Nice place for photograph... Also, the place that I miss the most due to specific reason...

Change

2010-06-26T01:53:00.012+08:00

It's rather a late night now but my mind is still rather awake..

I feel that the finals that I'm having now came at the very wrong timing... I was having Pesta during the study break and recently I was informed that my bro, Addison is leaving to Perlis on 4th of July.. BBQ party this Sunday and unfortunately that's a really crucial time for me to focus on next day's exam... Therefore, I'd rejected the invitation... SIGH!

Another news that I'd just got was.. from brother Jason.. I wasn't having a BIG surprise with the news, but I feel uncomfortable... I was imagining what's gonna happen on this Sunday's enrolment... Such a big day to my brother, but I won't be witnessing the historical moment... Yes, I'm not attending this year's enrolment..

In another words, I'm not enrolling this year... Making this decision is a hard one to me, as I enrolled as a member of 1stKL ever since joining BB in 2004... I choose not to now, because I can't assure that I'll be attending BB meetings regularly anymore... I wonder what "enrolment" means to most of you, but I'm taking it very seriously... If I'm not able to commit, I will choose not to enrol... After all, it's a promise to God, in front of everyone...

Reason behind, I don't know how well and how long more I can take in the junior section... I would say, I've never do well in the junior section and sometimes, I don't even feel like to... Yes, I love kids.. However, my life every Saturday now is so not "BB" to me anymore... I joined 1stKL was because of the senior section... I admit, I'm really a problematic one in the junior section. Not to say that I was a very good leader, but I've lost "myself" during my time in the junior section... I was just doing something which I don't like every Saturday and I feel that I'm actually wasting everyone's time... Being a full-time junior officer even during Pesta preparations is disastrous to me, seriously... Even I'm being put into the senior section now immediately, I don't think I can cope well, because I'm just so not "myself" anymore...

I'm not sure.. I start to wonder, whether I've changed... I feel that I'm so weak sometimes because I get affected by the environment and people around me easily... I was never like that in the secondary school time... I looked back at some of my secondary school photos last night and I felt that I was really ugly in appearance.. However, in depth of my heart I was saluting the fella in the photo I saw... because I remember 'that fella' once could take on anything in the world and I felt so proud of 'him'...

2010 had been a really really bad one to me... I've became someone that cannot accept change easily... Changes around me were tremendous I would say... Grandma passed away, quarreled BIG with dad, etc... Even as you can see, this blog has become so dull and emo... I was trying to stand out from these, but I just failed again and again... I was shocked when I realised that I actually fulfilled all the criteria of committing suicide, thru an newspaper article..

Don't worry, I'm not that stupid to do that... Just that I'm wondering whether the people & things around me have changed, or I've changed... I'd posted this on Facebook yesterday: "长大之后。。失去纯真，却换得了包容；失去热情，却换得了忍耐；失去直率，却换得了谦卑；失去青春，却换得了许多回忆。。" It was not from me, I don't have the wisdom yet.. It's quoted from a book author...

I salute her for such positive thinking in her life... I wish I could think like that.

P.S. Jason, I'm very touched by your recent post on blog... I'm sorry, probably I'll need a break from all these..

Penang!

2010-06-16T15:39:00.006+08:00

The bridge

The end of the bridge =P

Band final rehearsal

Penang's 牛腩面

Penang's Ramly, with marvelous marketing strategy... =.="

Kar Hoe being forced to cut hair... And that's where we ended up... XD

During the rehearsal of opening ceremonry

The beginning of the opening ceremony

4thKL band - did a strong performance for first timer!

Warm-up before entering the battlefield

Our very cool percussion line

Not forgetting, the drum major - SGT Benny Tham

Penang's famous traditional biscuits selling shop

Reli 'heng heong'!! XD

Derek the one credit finish game shooter & Choon Meng, who LOOKS very pro =P

This happens every midnight... very tired! >.<

The closing ceremony

I don't have much to say, but the memories preserved...

致爸爸的一封信

2010-05-31T02:03:00.002+08:00

就如我先前答应的，会写一封信给您。那天我真的在赶功课，我答一句，您又骂回几句，实在讲不到话。外婆去世那几天，其实我有好多assignment要赶，所以一下子堆集了很多功课还没有做。

“天下没有不疼子女的父母”我明白这个道理。但我也想让您知道，天下没有一个孩子是天生就爱反抗父母的。其实最近我明白了另一样东西，就是许多人都最容易与家人吵架，而不是身边其它的人，是因为许多人都最在乎家人对自己的看法。所以，当所谓的“误会”在家里产生了，骂架一定骂得很凶，因为双方都很想对方明白，并接受自己的看法。

我不知道您读着这封信时有没有一点伤感，我有一点。是因为我必须用写信的方式来跟自己的爸爸沟通，与爸爸的沟通方面真的出现了很大的问题。既然我们面对面真的沟通不来，我希望您会用心去读完我接下来写的东西。

我小时候很爱讲话，跟家人更是没有什么避忌的话题。但当我长大，慢慢地明白事理，更加了解您的时候，我真的没有勇气跟您商量事情了。看到您如何因为一些小事而把家人臭骂一顿，我时常都不出声。不是因为我怕您骂我，是因为我还想保留我心里对您的那一点尊重；是因为我知道，不论我说什么来解释给您听，你都还会臭骂我一顿，导致全家人更加不开心。就如当您问我们电脑的问题时，我们解释了以后，您居然不同意且还骂回我们。就连您不熟悉的东西您都要跟我们吵。

关于电脑的事，还有一个我不喜欢教您的原因是，很浪费时间。因为我必须要冒着被您骂的风险，而且在自己不得空的时候教您。看到自己的爸爸有这种“活到老，学到老”的精神，有哪一个孩子是不开心的？但您命令家人做东西方式就是那种，“我要你做，你就立刻要做”的。有时您还在我不得空的时候，叫我陪您出去做东西。您有没有尊敬过其他人的选择呢？我们是您的家人，请别把我们当成您公司的伙计。譬如我说要迟一点才做一样东西，您总会骂我说“自己的东西都不理！”其实我不是不理，我是已经安排好了几时要做那件事，且相信那会是自己最空闲，把事情做到最好的时间。

“虎父无犬子”其实很多时候您应该明白，我身为您的儿子，您的脾气不好，我的脾气也不会好到去哪里。这也就是您通常知道我在想什么的原因。但我必须说，有时您却没有站在我的立场想过。当我在大学里面塞车塞了半小时不动时，您叫我等一下；可是当您自己看到某条路多车时，您居然可以硬硬地做一个U-Turn。那天我为了您那几句话，我用了两小时多，饿着肚子回家。加上早上的一小时，我总共花了三个小时多在马路上。您自己也是一个没耐性的驾车人士，如果有人叫您这样继续塞车，您又愿意吗？是在大学里，不会动，可以关掉引擎的那种！

一天只有那24小时，我真的不想花那么多时间在无谓的塞车。这也就是其中一个我要搬出来住的理由。可能您会想问，为什么我时常那么迟才要回家。我想让您知道，澳洲课程就是如此，assignment时常都堆在一段时期要你交。许多assignment都是团体的，不是一个人的功课。您一声“家庭温暖”和“省钱”，我可必须如牛般，迟睡早起，塞车，压力，以致您看到的满脸暗疮。

以我所言，这家庭我继续长住下去的话，会更加的不温暖。我必须讲出一个残酷的事实 - 我在这个家庭找不到温暖。再这样若无其事地住下去，我迟早又要跟您骂大架。搬出去住，至少可以让我更珍惜这个家，也希望会让您更珍惜我和家人的存在。再说，我又不是不回家。每个拜五正常来说我都会回家。

说到钱，又是一个敏感的话题。从小，我都很害怕要向您讨钱，也时常买不到自己想要的东西。所以这次搬出去住，我早已决定了用自己的钱来解决。放心，我不会向您要更多的零用钱。在此，我也想表达下我的看法。我知道钱的重要性，没有钱当然是万万不能的。不过，感觉上这个家时常都为钱烦恼，您会不会把钱看得太重呢？时常都看您在问姐姐关于她工作的事，都不见您关心下我大学的事情，或多体谅下妈妈。难道我们的人生是只为了金钱而活，那么无谓吗？这世界还有一样很奥妙的东西叫“亲情”。它是一样用金钱买不到的东西，就算是一个百万富翁花了很多钱在家人身上，也不能代表他很有亲情。我在BB看见很多关心自己孩子学习进展的父母，而我却只有一个问我‘BB有没有给奖学金’的爸爸，您说我会不会觉得心酸呢？

还有一样我觉得很让我想不透的是“信任”。从小到大，我都感受不到您对我的信任。我说什么，您都好像不信似的。我自认我没有什么讲骗话，有时甚至诚实到连朋友都会骂我傻的。我有骗过您，不过都是一些不重要的事情，骗那些事情都是因为不要您太担心。最后一次骗您的“大件事”，应该是我跌电脑辞典，骗您没有跌的那次。您可以回想看，我连去马六甲旅行没去上课一天，我都诚实地告诉了您。可是您就是不相信我做的决定。现在给您知道，那天真的不到十个人上课，老师没有什么教书，另外一个老师还请了病假。爸爸，我连蚂蚁都不舍得杀，您却把我想成是个不孝子，可以把您杀掉那种。信任呢？

我那天BB meeting到很迟，没有吃到晚餐，想要吃了晚餐才回，才导致迟回家。我不喜欢的，并不是你们打电话来“关心”我，而是你们的责问 – “为什么这样夜还不要回来！”我真的很饿，想要吃了才回。为了不要你们太担心，我还特地要求朋友陪我到靠近家的地方吃。我也不想你们怪BB meet到那么迟，因为我不想你们对BB有不好的印象。我真的没有到处乱跑，请不要过度担心。难道你们真的想要有一天我变得满口谎言您才甘愿吗？

您常说做的东西是要我好，那我也想给您一个忠告。请您不要在家里面吸烟。以您现在的年纪，我听到的很多人都开始戒烟了。舒解压力的方法有成千上万种，请不要用那么不健康的方法。另一个原因是，我们吸二手烟的危害会比您更大，简单来说，比您更短命。希望您在家里点一支烟时，会考虑到这一点。

希望您不会把这篇东西看作是怨言。我只想跟您沟通，让您更了解我在想些什么。我没有资格说您错，更没有资格要您道歉。我说出这一些，是希望您能多广阔您的思想，站在另外一个立场想想。请容许我好好地尊重您，爱惜您！

Ah Boy.

Mother's Day 2010

2010-05-17T20:07:00.010+08:00

8th of May 2010 (Saturday):

Pre-juniors, preparing curry puff for their mummies =)

It's just too fun seeing small kids

My mind was a little chaotic on that day... I would say, I wasn't treating my mum very well, but I was in a position to teach the kids how to love their mom...

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9th of May 2010 (Sunday):

It was Mother's Day itself...

My family & I went to Kajang, to visit my mother's mom, not plainly due to Mother's Day, but also because of the worsen of grandma's health... She had not been eating for few days and was really weak...

Xiang, the youngest & latest member for my mom's side relatives

Don't move around!

Ah see! In fact he laughed at himself in the photo after this shot... =P

Emo Xiang

Xiang is my cousin bro's child... I consider him a very well-behaved boy, as he won't cry over little stuff, and won't make as much irritating noise as normal babies do... Erm, so unlike his dad! Haha...

Anyway, it was my worst Mother's Day, as I had a big quarrel with my dad, in front of my mom... Sorry mom!

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14th of May 2010 (Friday):

It was a further confirm that this is the worst Mother's Day...

Like usual, Friday was my turn to drive, and I was at Zhi's house... A call from my sis basically killed me off! I was told that my grandma had passed away... I felt like crying on the spot, but I managed to hold on until Zhi & Mei were away from me...

Immediately after I stepped on the pedal and went off, tears was washing my face... I couldn't accept the fact at that moment... She was my only grandparent left, and she'd left so much memories to me... My mom had not switch on her phone & I went to pick her up... I cried out the moment I told her the news...

After reaching home, I took quite some time to settle down... Amazingly, my mom was even more calm than me, and was the one who comforted me... And the night when I finally saw my grandma, I didn't manage to cry already... Perhaps I'd already accept the fact that she has relieved from her sickness... Furthermore, she's already 94, with 5 generations!

5 generations is somewhat a miracle to me... God has really granted her wonderfully! Amen...

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15th of May 2010 (Saturday):

Didn't go BB that day...

Mr. Cheong & family visited my grandma's house... Felt so comfortable chatting with them! Well, it was really a huge spiritual support to me... Thank you!

Throughout the days, I was kinda disturbed by a matter which is the assignments... My group started the assignment very late, and I would have to leave my group behind, for 2 assignments! If you are reading this, so sorry again... =/

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16th of May 2010 (Sunday):

For a ceremony

Very nicely done! I mean, the artwork, made by sand!

A closer view

The dragon

Head

However, after the ceremony started not long ago, the sky started to rain heavily... And it was really HEAVY that kind, where the wind & smoke flying right into our eyes... Nevertheless, the 2 sifu were still carrying on what they supposed to do... They danced under the heavy rain for some moment...

However I heard that the original ceremony the sifu even play with the fire and will do more stuff, just that the rain did not allow them to do that...

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17th of May 2010 (Monday):

It was the day... My grandma was finally buried in Nirvana, Semenyih...

Won't talk about it in detail... Just one note, it was the first time I cried listening to a brass band! The songs they played were just so sad, and the moment they started to play, I had a feeling that they are gonna bring my grandma away... And that's the reason I posted the note on Facebook... I was crying at that time in fact... =/

烧猪

Another note was, I realised God is doing something to the people around me... I realised that I already have 2 aunties converted to Christian together with their family! And their stand was so firm that they did not hold the joss stick...

I was holding the joss sticks, not due to the reason that I'd lost in faith, but because I just didn't wish to create any issue with my parents or relatives at that moment...

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To my dearest grandma:

May you rest in peace... 顺顺去！

P.S. "顺顺回" is what my grandma always said in Hakka whenever we were about to make a move from her house... I will miss her saying that...

Need A Chat

2010-05-05T06:54:00.010+08:00

Am waiting time to pass... as this morning only I saw the sms from Zhi, saying that we're going to uni later...

I find it hard to sleep again, last night... Hate the feeling... Do you ever try before, physically tired, but wake up in the midnight in a sudden, and take a long time to fall asleep again?

I just realised that uni life isn't easy at all... not because of the tonnes of assignment or maybe test... It's because of the changes of things around you, changes in the people, changes in your life... You may want things happen as simple as you think, and of course you wish everything goes according to you, but in my case, it just never happen.

I have a family who never trust me, never trust my decision... Can you imagine living in such environment for 20years? Can you imagine the feeling that, you never lie to them, but they just don't trust you again & again? I wanted to respect them! I always hear a saying in chinese: "all parents love their children", I agree! However, what about this: "no children are born to hate their parents"?

I've seen so many parents in BB, and I feel that their children are so fortunate, to have such caring & supportive parents... I believe my parents till now don't know what the 4 stripes is about, and I believe the President's Badge signifies nothing to them. I did explain to them before, but they seemed didn't even care... Is this world all about money? YES! I start to believe, money is the root of all problem, I wish to go for a debate on this topic now.

In BB, I start slacking like I never do before... worse than the time I used to be a private. I could just put the treasury & gold award assignments for a side.. for months? I miss the challenging senior section very much, but when can I go back? And senior section is so disappointing at the moment, not talking about the competition results, but the attitude...

I really wonder how teenagers nowadays think... Perhaps my advice to you is, before you act, do consider one thing: what you act is indirectly showing how well your parents educate you. Ok, I know I am being harsh at this point.. but think twice, it actually makes sense... I got a big shock when I went for a community service in an orphanage, looking at the orphans' attitude... but I forgive them, as soon as I realised the point that they lack of education from parents.

Oh well, brader Jason is coming back to town in a short moment... Perhaps.. oh not the right word... I'm 'SURE' that he will be able to give more motivation to both me & BB! In other aspects like friends, studies, not talking about love/relationship which is null.. It's all in a mess to me now... Perhaps the perfectionist in me plays a big part in this... I can't imagine that I actually spent such a short time to type all these out... And I suppose to leave the house now...

I need a chat... A chat with God

Labour Day, Awards Day... Saturday!!

2010-05-02T17:53:00.008+08:00

Benedict - My favourite pre-junior, was trying to throw 2 Frisbees at once!

Well, unintentionally, Mr. Cheong & our SGT Benny were captured in the photo also... It eventually made the photo more meaningful as all 3 of them contributes a big part of "BB" to me...

Mr. Cheong - My most respected BB officer, legendary!

Benny - The leader who stands by at all times, in this struggling period
Benedict - His innocence has given me a reason to drop by every Saturday... Not forgetting, his cuteness, his parents' expectation + trust on 1stKL!!

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Awards Day was good...

The band has really getting better & better! =)

Claimed for 2 advance stages award, at the age 0f 20!! XD

Probably my last Awards Day in BLUES... ?

23 - 24/4/2010

2010-04-25T16:03:00.010+08:00

I went back to secondary school on Friday, to sort of give some support to our 1stKL Pesta participants... There were recordings going on for the singing & dancing team...

During Saturdays, I wasn't able to get involved in any of the competitions preparation as I'm always stuck in Junior section, which requires a lot of manpower... =/ Anyway, I only stayed up to dinner and missed the dance recording...

We also had some fun among ourselves... =P Addi's drumming:

Fun watching him played what Kar Hoe instructed him to play... XD

P.S. It's definitely not his best!! I've seen him playing some Latin crazy stuff and that's really freak me out! @.@

I find this very cool, hahaha!!

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As for yesterday, it was the KL State Drill, Singing & Dancing Display Competition...

1stKL got 3rd placing in both senior & junior section for drill... =/ 3rd placing might sounds nice... However, knowing the fact that there were only 3 teams in junior section and only first 2 placing teams are taking part for Pesta in senior section, it doesn't seems good at all...

As for singing & dancing, there's no professional judge, but there were rankings given... 1stKL lose out in both competition and I admit that it was very discouraging...

Anyway people, bear in mind that they were only displays, the final results from Penang we are still yet to receive!! Losing out in drill is not the end of the world... ^^

Don't forget we still have a 'secret weapon' - BAND!! Make us proud, band members!! ROARRR~

玩你的人和爱你的人区别

2010-04-22T23:21:00.006+08:00

玩你的人：半夜会找你打电话聊天到很晚。
爱你的人：会告诉你不要聊那么晚。

玩你的人：他会找你出去玩，叫你放弃正事。
爱你的人：他会催你好好工作，踏踏实实。

玩你的人：在你生病时，会讲好话关心你。
爱你的人：在你生病时，他会关心到你烦，并强迫你去看医生。

玩你的人：他会尽量说好话来讨好你，你也会觉得很开心。
爱你的人：他所说的话，都是关心你的，但是通常象是在命令。

玩你的人：他什么事情都会配合你，只要你开心。
爱你的人：他会帮你辨别是非，但是你会感觉他管的太多。

玩你的人：他说他要给你最大的快乐。
爱你的人：他只能给你保证，你跟他在一起，他是最快乐的。

玩你的人：他在意你的生活细节，即使你做错了什么，他也不会指出来。
爱你的人：他在意你的一举一动，告诉你什么地方错了，什么地方该如何做，该如何与别人交往。

玩你的人：他不会在意你去做什么，与什么人交往。
爱你的人：他很在意你去做什么，与什么人交往。他还会告戒你不要与什么人交往

玩你的人：他只想要现在
爱你的人：他已经预见未来，该怎么自我努力，好好给你幸福。

玩你的人：他会说“我喜欢你！”
爱你的人：他会说“我爱你。”

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Recently am busy with assignments & wasting time, don't really have time to blog... I realise I've never spend my holiday wisely... >.<

Was thinking to do lots of things for this holiday, but no even 50% achieved, again! One of the plans was to update blog, "My Gang 2", haha... Anyway, just copied & pasted a post from Facebook... =P

Well, I think this is especially true when comes to my era... What you think?

2010-04-18T13:25:00.015+08:00

一对青年男女在公园约会时，女孩特别想放屁，她想了个办法：
女：你听过布谷鸟叫吗？
男：没听过。
女：我给你学，布（放屁声）一谷（口中发出的声音）。
学了几声后，该放的也已放完。
女：听清了吗？
男：放屁声太大，没听清。

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15th of April 2010 (Thursday):

Sushi bonanza-ed

I feel hungry looking at this photo... =.="

Yen was criticised for having bicep smaller than Kian..

Err... Suan la Yen... =P

Alex a.k.a. Marty @Madagascar

The basketballers

I took quite a number of photos, but none looked nice, especially the eyes.. =.=" so I'd decided to wear shades...

P.S. That's why must have sufficient sleep everyday!!

Looked so blind, haha!

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17th of April 2010 (Saturday):

Jennifer was absent, Hoe & I took over the pre-juniors... @.@

Amazingly, he knows what is an 'anchor' at his age... Kids are very clever nowadays!

I just failed to capture the cuteness of them... Believe me, they're 100times cuter than they are in this photo!!

Shout like a man!! XD

Before I left BB, I went to watch the seniors' dancing team practice...

@.@

I don't know much about dancing, but I could see that they were definitely having fun!!

Too bad during my time there wasn't any dancing competition, if not I would surely join and make sure myself get into the final team!

Wishing them all the best for next week's performance... =)

我很“牛”

2010-04-16T20:22:00.004+08:00

牛仔很忙。。我不是很忙，但我最近很牛。

我不是在开玩笑，我只是想表达一下心情。踏入2010后，我的脾气开始变得越来越暴躁，拳头都不懂乱挥乱撞了多少次。。这让我想起12至14岁的我。

还记得12岁当年，时常把粗话挂在嘴边。当然不是在家里啦！是当与朋友在一起的时候。直到自己心仪的女生劝告时，我才果断地把它戒掉。P.S. 爱情的魔力真的很大！进入大学以后，我的粗口又回来了。。只要看到有不爽的事，就忍不住要痛快地骂出来。伤心的是，我留意到身边的朋友全都被我影响了，全都开始骂脏话！

13至14岁时，我常被骗，被排斥，被出卖！不用说你都知道我当时的心灵是怎样的。。当然怨气很重啦！但当时的知心朋友不多，所以emo都没人理。直到从BB认识了主和一班兄弟以后，自己才慢慢地变得温顺，并且学会了感恩和珍惜。。最近可不知为什么的，常把一大堆问题塞进脑里，然后不知不觉地emo了。2010前的我，还时常埋怨身边的朋友emo，影响大家的心情。现在自己亲自尝试到时，才发觉到原来emo是那么不受控制的！除非当事人来安慰自己吧。。

才发现，自己现在和当初12-14岁时没什么分别，一样很牛脾气！可能分别只是，现在的我似懂得比较多道理的牛罢了。。

身边的朋友，不论熟的，或不太熟的，被影响的，或被间接影响的。。我想真心对你们说声“对不起”！我的臭脾气，我的执著，可让身边的人在这段日子里都受苦了！每次听到你们讲粗口的时候，我都感到一些惭愧，因为你们都似被我影响的。从前，我算是朋友当中非常理智的一个。朋友们有什么问题，甚至爱情的问题，都会来请求我的意见。最近都很少了，可能大家都觉得我已经不再理智了。其实连我自己都赞同这一点，只不过当要改过时，总是力不从心。。

其实自己多半也知道了背后的原因，是因为我的心已离开主越来越远了。。心里没有主的日子真的很空虚。。不知道要如何让大家明白那种感觉，总而言之是很颓废，很没目标，很没方向感的。。在过去的一个月里，我没几天是在12点之前睡的，因为总觉得睡觉很浪费时间。不时都发恶梦，不时都会在半夜起来时，开始分析身边存在的问题，因而长时间后才继续睡下去。每个星期六去BB，也觉得自己似在浪费时间罢了。。

所幸我将有一个星期假期，我决心要在这假期里调养回身体和心理！如果大家有留意到的话，我最近真的决心要改过了！很恨自己牛的时候。。

希望大家能够原谅之前的我！谢谢！

2010-04-07T22:54:00.007+08:00

"Yay, it's Malaysian Studies!!"

"Malaysian Studies? 睬它都傻啦!"

"Menurut kepada Tunku Abdul Rahman..."

Wakaka, those captions are so untrue! In fact they're just some candid shots, some by me, some by Kian... Malaysian Studies got very few student attending tutorial... My gang simply made up more than 50% of the class, haha!

Ohya, it's 12am now, a special moment for a fella...

The birthday boy!! XD

We had a celebration for him today, by organising his favourite activity - sing k!! And it lasted for 6hours... @.@ Not forgetting, the Topman shirts that we bought for him as presents!! Our gang celebrated everyone's birthday, but never give out present... He must be very grateful huh? =P

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY Chee Yen a.k.a. Aska, Gary, Tank, LeeHom, Justin!! Hope you enjoyed the day!

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My PTPTN got approved! =D

After deducting the scholarship Taylor's provided, the amount PTPTN offered me can eventually provide me some excess allowance, hiak hiak~

Of course, the bad side of it is I'll have to bear the repayment amount when I'm out for work... =.=" sounds not very fun after all...

Oink!

2010-04-05T22:13:00.003+08:00

Wakakaka~ XD

I certainly have no issue with this shop, but the things they do are rather ridiculous! So I've to make a post about them again, hahaha...

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Reasons for not updating blog in the previous week:

3 assignment dues, 1 presentation, 1 test

Hotel Room Service

2010-03-28T21:33:00.008+08:00

I was laughing crazily when I entered a cake shop just now...

Marketing Strategies: Pitbull + 40% discount

You may laughed like I did, but look at this!

... it attracted a lot of customers, HAHAHAH...

XD

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Recently quite busy, with...

and...

Assignmentsss!!

Yup, 3 's', 3 assignment dues coming up... =.="

Swam

2010-03-26T22:17:00.004+08:00

Weather was good, decided to go for a swim
It's been long not swimming, due to the sickness I had
The pool wasn't very clean, but I couldn't resist and jumped
Some people was around, and left from time to time
It was me alone then, the most enjoyable moment
Swam, swam, and swam
Put away everything and swam towards the ending point opposite
Finally, was tired
Took a shower, and the sky started drizzling
Two steps before under the shed, droplets on shoulder were heavier
Heavy rain after that
Timing seemed to be so right, thank God
Spotted a cut on finger, when bathing

Points are short, but detailed
Post is simple, just wish to drop by
Tired and good night

2010-03-22T17:44:00.017+08:00

Pesta Preparation Camp 2
(13th - 15th March 2010):

Time for sunburn again =D

LOOK WHO'S BACK?! @.@

Yup, Mr. Yeap was back!! I'll forgive you for ONCE if you don't know him, as a marching band member of Malaysia... He's the band instructor of Sam Tet Brass Band, the 15th Malaysian Secondary School Marching Band Competition 2009 FIRST RUNNER-UP winner!!

Well, in case you don't know anything about him with 1stKL, he used to be the instructor for 1stKL before he end up at Sam Tet... Hmm, to be more specific, he left in 2004... Remember it very well because it was the year I just joined... T.T

The last time I saw him was 2006's Pesta preparation camp... I wondered whether he still remember me, and I asked him... =P Surprisingly he said 'yes' and I was delighted to be remembered by my idol, haha! I still remember that he scolded me for not being serious enough in band drill, when I just joined the band... In fact I was serious eh... =.=" just that I didn't use to it...

Mr. Yeap drew us the band formations! ^^

I wish to talk more about Mr. Yeap rather than the camp in fact... =P It's no point for me to brag or complain about the band at all, the truth shall be revealed during Pesta! =)

Talking about Mr. Yeap, again... =P Most of us had the thought that: He is bringing hope to us... I found out that it's very true... In fact it's not that he "brings" the hope to us... To me, it's more like his passion influenced us... I believe everyone would agree that it's very very fun playing band under him... =)

He told us that it is a must to come back to 1stKL... I'm not very sure why he said so, perhaps like all of us, this is the place he got to know God? Anyway, I'm gonna thank him for spending time with 1stKL... You gotta know that an instructor like him can simply earn 3 digits for an hour & 4 digits for a song's marching formation!

Let's talk a little bit about the camp, very little... XD On the Sunday, it was the drum major - Benny's birthday...

This photo is for you to spot Wah Zai, not Benny!! XD

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20th of March 2010 (Saturday):

It's the following Saturday then, haha! Was really busy & tired throughout last week, forgive me for not updating blog! XD

Versus

Woohoo~ It was junior's Fun Sports Camp... =P Overall, I didn't really involve in the camp because of classes... Anyway, was there to help out for badminton on Saturday... =D

Most of them already know how to play but couldn't play well... There's also some who didn't know how to play at all! I thought one of the boys how to play and in the end his pair managed to beat one of the strongest pairs, haha!

P.S. It's because he's still very new to it, unable to control the strength well... Most of his shots brought the ball to right in front of the net and scored! XD

Jeremy wasn't satisfied with his own performance! Very very cute, haha!

Before the end of the session, ALL these boys gathered on one side of the court, challenged Mark [man in white] + I! Hahaha...

Last Saturday was also a special day, as there were 7 promotions in senior section! @.@

PROMOTION OF SERGEANTS!!

For long, 1stKL has no sergeant... It's really glad to see sergeants coming out from 1stKL, as the ability of 1stKL sergeants are unquestionable... =) That's why you won't see many boy being promoted to sergeant, in 1stKL...

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Faces today...

Our very own 曹格.. Eh no, Tank... NO! It's 卢广仲 this time round! XD

*This expression*
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" 我要吃Zanmai~~ "

P.S. Happens everyday right? Hahaha!

A Happy Day?!

2010-03-08T18:17:00.015+08:00

Just wish to leave a note here, as it's quite a remarkable day! =D

God gave me a surprise I would say... Still remember my post about my primary school gang, about a week ago? I was saying that I'd lost contact with 2 of my friends from the gang, they were 杰龙 & 毅浩... 毅浩 still ok actually, at least I spent some time with him in Tsun Jin before I transferred to MBS, and also met him several times in shopping malls...

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Back to today! Today there's quite a lot of people smiled at me actually, I guess it's something good after the team building thingy being ran? =P

It was after the Malaysian Studies at 10am... There's a guy in yellow shirt smiled at me like some people did... I couldn't recognise him at all but I returned him with a smile too... He started talking to me in mandarin:

He：你记得我吗？你也是读安邦出来的对吗？

I：哦，安新华小咯! (It's a school placed in 安邦 also)

He：你是不是叫杨世康？

Immediately I realised he's my primary schoolmate, but still... I couldn't recognise him AT ALL!!

I：对啦！你是谁？我真的认不出你哦！

He：丁杰隆！

The 3 words had made me stunt for a while before I continued... I still remembered the dark, thin 'fella' in my memory who's named "丁杰隆"... However, the 'fella' in front of me was a rather muscular guy with fair skin + spectacles!

I spent some time talking to him then and not letting go the chance to get his phone number... I looked at him again & again in fact... He seriously changed a lot! Hahaha... Let me bring you to some of the memories I had with him... =D

One activity that we had during primary was throwing stones to each other... =.=" Ya, my primary school very 'ganas' one... And of course, one of the rules is not to target people's head la... HOWEVER, accidents do happen! I was the unfortunate guy who got hit by a stone, threw by him!! XD

He was a very good ping pong & badminton player, represented school for both of that... Superb in general knowledge... Remember that very well as I was also one of the regular ones to represent school to take part in the "常识比赛" organised by newspaper publishers... He used to win the first prize while the rest of us won nothing... =.="

P.S. I managed to beat him ONCE, during a 'cheaplak' competition which test on sports & entertainment news more! XD

Not forgetting, he used to be a Liverpool fans also! Not sure about it now... =P Really surprised to meet him in Taylor's, same under UniSA! ^^

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Therefore, today supposed to be a happy day for me...

The Amazing Run

2010-03-07T12:34:00.015+08:00

My uni had a team building day yesterday... It's a Saturday but they've made it compulsory with threat that if we don't attend, we will be losing marks in 2 of our papers this semester... =.="

It's supposed to start at 9am but somehow the activities have started before 9 when we reached... Well, I think we've just missed the intro & some warm up...

Group 8! My group's banner!

Well, just in case you are not able to interpret it with your pea brain, it means: To "INFINITY", United We Stand... =D

We were seperated into 19 groups to have a 'Amazing Race' kind of activity where we'd got to look for clues and complete some tasks involving mental, physical & teamwork... When my group was gathered, we were very quiet while many other groups were starting to sort of get to know each other... I was like: Ok, how am I gonna survive thru the entire day?!

Soon the facilitator of our group came & asked for a group leader among us... I was scratching my left eye and the facilitator, Miss Mala pointed at me and ask: "So are you the the group leader?" I said no, but I wouldn't mind... And Miss Mala said: "So you are the group leader now!"

The lunch we had...

Once the game started, I realised my first thought to the group was very wrong... In fact, my group was one of the highest in spirit to win the race! XD We used to run a lot throughout the race and involvement from everyone was high...

As some of you might already know, my asthma came back on Friday due to the serious cough I had... Therefore, it took me really hard to follow up the pace sometimes, but it's worthy after all...

P.S. It had been 10 years since I had asthma I guess?! It came back, damn...

One of the tasks to be completed, tower building with straws...

Group 8's tower

After the whole event, I realise tower building was the key activity of the day for my group... We were the first group who finished the tower and that made us so much faster to complete the whole race than any other groups... =P

However, our tower eventually was also the first to be tested... Other groups managed to take note and further modify their towers, in order the pass the test... =.=" Therefore, my group end up to be in the second position in overall, after quite a massive number of marks being deducted on the stability of tower...

Reward for being FIRST to complete the race!! =D

SECOND in overall, lost by 1.5marks only >.<

My group & our SEXY tower

After all, this team building day isn't as bad as I'd thought... Managed to make some new friends, learn some new games and also share some thoughts... I was the so called "leader", but everyone took turns to lead throughout the race... ^^

Loving number "8" more and more! XD

P.S. Yen, my group just lost to your group by a little bit, don't be too proud & stop calling yourself the Taylor's Amazing Run Champion (TARC) =.="

Faces Today

2010-03-01T23:44:00.008+08:00

After the Malaysian Studies lecture, we had 2 hours of break before the next lecture begins... Oh well, in fact some of us had 3 hours, as we reached late & skipped class... XD

In TARC, we've got "Yam Yam (阴阴) Park"; In Taylor's Lakeside, we've got "Student Life Centre"! =D

^^v
P.S. Look at his nails...

Hwai

Mei

This photo worth RM1million... I took it by risking my life... =D

Alex - Our new friend ^^

Emo Kian... Because of the topic being discussed? =/

And back to Hwai + Yen again...

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Uni life is never boring so far, with this group of people... =P Had our first lecture today, marketing principles... The lecturer spoke in the speed of bullet train... =.=" Amazingly, she spent the 2hours to cover about the whole semester + technique to answer + how to look for key words & start teaching...

Long time have not use the brain on studies, and suddenly so many things came it together... Well, perhaps that's uni life? Lecturers mostly will just SHOOT!! XD

My Gang (1)

2010-02-28T15:26:00.021+08:00

所谓。。“在家靠父母，出外靠朋友” XD

I used to have many gangs in my life... I'm ok being alone actually, but that would make my life very pathetic as you can imagine... Therefore, I tend to naturally "immerse" into gangs that are formed with the people around me...

Tadika =D

I can still remember that I already have a small gang when I was in tadika... Yea, tadika, so I've forgotten all the people... =P Let's skip it and go to primary school...

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Gang Name: 兄弟 (I suppose? hahaha!!)
Since: Standard 5
Gang Size: 6
Members:

Firdaus

Handsome? Haha! To those who are curious with his name.... Right, he's a mix!! Chinese + Malay... Lost contact with him since form2, and met him again during my A-Level @TARC!! Still as smart as last time... Err no, should say he's getting smarter and smarter!! XD He has a very pretty girlfriend now, hiak hiak...

Kar Kit

Ha! He used to be very close with Firdaus during primary... It's because they're both good in BM & supporting the same football club - Manu!! Before we actually formed this gang, I was already quite close to him... And same thing like Firdaus, I met him again in TARC, haha!

Yuen Hoe

My best buddy during primary... We were very good friends even till now! A very good badminton player during primary (not sure about it now XD) Anyway, he's a very good futsal player now!! Represented his PLKN for futsal competition and got 2nd placing... Not easy, people...

We started watching football & support the Reds from the same day... ^^ He's the one that I keep contact the most since graduated... Perhaps Liverpool plays a big part in this, right bro? Haha!

I can still remember that there was a rule that girl must sit beside boy during standard 6... However, my class got 2 boys extra, and I was arranged to sit beside him!! =D Wonder why, prefer sitting with boy than girl last time, so stupid... >.<

After graduated from primary, I visited his house during almost all the long holidays... Playstation + football with his neighbours... Well, I have a conclusion now... It's football that link both of us strongly... Awesome! =D

P.S. Sorry for grabbing the photos without permission... =P

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There are 2 more people from this gang to be introduced actually... However, I've totally lost contact with them! >.< 杰隆 & 毅浩, where are you?!

Well... I can still remember that this gang was 'establish'ed during one of the assemblies during standard 5... We started by asking each other's birthday, and start calling each other 兄弟, haha! I eventually turned up to be the 二哥 in the gang, due to my birthday... XD

And one more thing we realised after that was there were many February babies in our class, it's something like: 21, 23, 24, 25... close dates together... I 21st, Yuen Hoe 23rd, Kar Kit 24th...

Talking about activities we had... We used to "kick bottles", haha! We were hardcore football fans but we got no money to buy ball, so we kick bottles... =P Most of the time we stayed as a team to challenge the others... We got our team called "Liverchester", as we got 3 Liverpool fans + 3 Manu fans... XD Don't laugh la, don't forget that we were only 12 years old!!

One of the most precious memories would be the Singapore trip after we're graduated... We sat together in bus, ate together, bathed together, slept together, do prank to people together, and... a lot more, haha!

During my time in this gang I was a rather bad guy actually... Speak vulgar words, bully the weaker ones, quarrel with teacher... However, the time being with you guys was definitely a fun one... Wish one day we can all gather and have a 6D gathering... =)

Standard 4... I was the monitor!! =D

Standard 6... Spot me if you can, haha! Met so many of them, but there's no gathering being organised!! =/

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Stay tune for the next post of "My Gang"! It might not be the next post... Would appear when I have the time + the mood to do it, haha!

Big Days

2010-02-26T14:03:00.008+08:00

Chinese New Year (CNY):

I never put 'Ang Pao' as the thing that I look forward the most in my 20 years of life... =P My view to CNY for the first 10 years was all about lion dance... Was always looking forward to TVB's chor1 & hometown - Kajang's lion dance performances... The drum beats + the "lion" formed by 2 men are just so impressing, even to me now... =D

As for my second 10 years, it's more to gambling already... XD Well, I used to win more than lose, hehe... However, I was a really good boy as I saved all of them into the bank together with the "Ang Pao" money... =D

This year is rather a weird one... I was not excited about CNY at all... =.=" Perhaps I'm being less romantic nowadays, it didn't seem to be an exciting event like I thought last time... Didn't follow parents out for most of the days... Instead, I spent most of my time with friends!

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Birthday:

Had a superb night on 20th... Was with all my good friends @TGI Friday... Appreciate the surprises I had... =) As for 21st itself, became 财神 at Weiyi's parents' friend's house... XD Anyway, how much I'd put in the wallet was the amount which I expected to lose actually, so I don't really mind...

The staff at TGIF only allowed me to make one wish... =.=" Therefore, I'd made the same wish as last year... It'd been a wish for 3 years consecutively I guess? It's for my family, not what most of you are thinking...

Hmm, 20 already... >.<

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Uni started! Argh...

Seems like I was enjoying every moment that I had after A-Level, I'd got no mood to study already... Therefore, I didn't have the excited feeling to start school at all... =.="

Had orientation for 3 days, which is very long to me... I still remember that I had only one day of orientation at TARC, which was fruitful enough... Basically there are many talks on these 3 days... Luckily I had 6/7 friends with me together all the time, if not I would die of boredom...

Well, there's disadvantage of having big group of friends too... Haha, it's because we would tend to encourage each other to skip programme! XD

Green Box:

Lots of food... @.@ P.S. recognise the guy who's eating... Remember to greet him "歌神" whenever you see him... Let me show you how 'power' is he...

"洋葱" - A song which many men not able to sing!

Right, take this opportunity to introduce you another brother of mine who is gonna be with me for another 3 years of studies... =)

The lightweight arm wrestling champion for ALL TIME - Kian How!!

P.S. Chee Yen's bicep ain't small... =.=" Don't ask me why, I was shocked too when I first played with him...

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Pesta registration is closing... I hardly make up my mind to go this time round, as I'd receive the calendar from UniSA stating that I'll be having study break + final exams in June...

Pesta will be taking half of my study break, according to the calendar... However, who can ensure that the exam dates will not be adjusted?

Gonna miss another Pesta again?

Chor 2

2010-02-16T00:30:00.004+08:00

Hi people! It's 2nd day of CNY, 年初二... =)

As some of you know, I was back to Kajang... No air-cond, no Internet! Only cards...

See! Even the children were also playing cards... XD

As usual, met a lot relatives today... About 100 people I guess? =P Therefore, quite a number of angpao I've got also, hehe...

One of the major activities today was gambling... Can't help it, I seriously don't know what else I can do if I don't gamble... Was losing almost all the time, really no luck to gamble recently... Luckily I managed to win back some in the last 3 rounds, which I gambled big... =P

I'm not addicted to gambling, seriously... =.="

It had been years since I closely watch lion dance... @.@

Spotted 4 today opposite my grandma's house!! So I walked there...

Oh cheh, they were exchanging shift... The 2 nicer ones left and left these 2 to perform...

The drunken lions... Haha!

Very playful la these 2... Anyway, there are not the very professional ones obviously... Therefore don't blame me for the show was not interesting... XD

P.S. I became a very quiet person, every time in hometown... Wonder why... =.="

Spending TIme With You!

2010-02-13T23:31:00.009+08:00

Hi blog... XD

Well, 15 more minutes to 'Dai Nin Cho Yat' (大年初一), am spending some time here to blog! =D TV programmes are rather boring & friends of mine have mostly left to hometown, with no internet connection! Muahahaha~

Yea, being evil, but am boring now without them... =.="

Long time I've not blog because I was lazy... For now, basically there are 2 major things I wish to report on... =)

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Firstly... I've found my "next station"!! Yes... After being jobless for a month plus, I'd got myself registered to Taylor's University College... =) I was once very close to Nottingham University, but changed my mind in the end after receiving my A-Level result...

I'd got 1A2B, which couldn't bring me any scholarship in Nottingham (requirement: 2A1B), but 50% in Taylor's!! Therefore, I started seriously consider about Taylor's and eventually made up my mind... Very soon, I realised that I was not alone! Half of the 'Bitches & Beasts" & our faithful study group members: Chee Yen & Rui Hwai are there too!!

It's God's plan... Can you imagine that Nottingham had accepted my offer and everything, but in the end I turn up in Taylor's, with 50% scholarship?! Haha! I was shock too...

Anyway, how fun can Taylor's be I don't know yet... What I know now is I'll definitely miss the people & environment at TARC... =P

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12am! Happy Chinese New Year!! =D

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Second thing I wished to report on is actually the Genting trip!! XD

Our family @Maxim Suite

I wished to make a detailed report on that trip at first... However, by the time I'd got all the photos, I was lazy... =P

Anyway, let the memory be preserved in our mind... =) Well, the photos on facebook can really lead me to great laugh every time I see them... Very glad to have this gang to be along with me throughout my A-Level period... No matter how we are gonna be separated in future, the gang remains... Right? ;)

Someone's missing in the photo huh? Yea, the used-to-be leader of the gang- Hunt was missing... Not because he was the cameraman though... =/ He missed the trip, as he was dealing with some matters in order for him to go to Australia...

HE'S LEAVING ON NEXT WEDNESDAY! =(

He will be there to further his studies... So sudden... Gonna miss him seriously... This also mark that Hunt will be the first one to leave the rest of the gang... Anyway, he said he's gonna keep contact with me... I wish... haha!!

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Lastly, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR once again!

And of course, to those who have boyfriend/girlfriend, wish you enjoy your day with your love ones too! ^^

I Still Remember

2010-02-02T14:34:00.009+08:00

It was last Thursday... =)

Kian Kian's birthday! XD

P.S. "Kian Kian" is his name in the gang, I don't gay with him...

It's a surprising celebration to him! Right bro? =P 20 already, ahahaha... You're OLD! XD

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Next, Friday to Sunday...

He released it all, after 3 months of endurance...

Professional football training for our juniors... =D Spot the red shirt guy? He'd been thru training in Bayern Munich FC... @.@

Warm up + Stretching

Juniors, waiting for their turn to kick the ball... IMPATIENTLY!!

And of course... Pesta band preparation for seniors...

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Yesterday...

Performance by acrobats from Guang Xi @MV... @.@

If this is already "Wow!", then what about...

... this!! Hahaha....

Chinese simply rocks when comes to "traditional performances", or whatever it calls... =.=" I feel so proud every time I see public performances like the lion dance or maybe acrobatic like this... They're so unique and the spirit is awesome... =)

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Most of my classmates or maybe college mates went back to college to collect result slip today... Yet, I'm at home... =D Forgive me, I'm too tired...

Back from camp on Sunday then went to Jusco, Belakong... Didn't have enough sleep, woke up early yesterday to help to clean house... After that shop at MV as you could see...

And of course, the main reason behind is still the Pesta camp that I'd been thru... Didn't have much sleep, half-fainted on the last day of the camp... =P Not that I'm weak though, if I am to trace back, it's also caused by the late 3am sleep on Thursday, and early wake up on Friday for futsal... =.=" And the main point I was trying say is: I was already very tired even before the camp starts...

P.S. Oh no, I'm becoming like Caleb for the last 2 paragraphs... XD

Anyway, talking about the camp... It had never been like that, at least during the time I'm in BB... I would say the boys are really blessed to have a "team" like that to help them... Sad to see most of them didn't appreciate it... Perhaps, they didn't been thru it?

I still remember during "my time", we didn't have such a strong/expensive "band instructors team" to actually make us march & play like a correct marching band do... This time round I hear the best musics from 1stKL...

I still remember during "my time", my officers used to sit under the shade of terrace, and looked at us marching rounds & rounds... This time round they had 6/7 officers come down to the field & walk with them...

I still remember during "my time", NCOs are the one who check all the dressing & did all the shouting... This time round officers were the one who did them...

I still remember during "my time", officers = officers, they won't treat us like "brothers" and to the ultimate like letting you splashed and complained... This time round I even hearing complains about officers...

I still remember during "my time"...

It's endless... And I know clearly that saying these out might not be an act of an officer, but please... If you are one of them and you are reading this, I hope you would have a deep thought on what you've done...

Yes, I didn't say these out during the camp, as sometimes I thought I'm not even good enough to comment about the band because during "my time", the quality has not been there before... However sometimes, it's not about how well you do it, it's also how you do it & the way you do it... After all, we are in the Boys' Brigade, an unique organisation with great purposes...

I gotta admit that I'm very very tired serving in BB at the moment... Mainly due to the treasury work & junior section... Please pray for me...

Packed Week!

2010-01-28T13:11:00.008+08:00

When I say it's a packed week, I don't mean that I was busy with works only... It's also about playing, gathering, gaming and so on... I always wonder why my parents wouldn't praise me if I work/study hard, but scold me once I "play too much"...

After all, life is about enjoying! Agree? Come on, I'm on holidays people...

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26th of January 2010 (Tuesday):

We're in the lift for loading @IOI Mall... =D

It's the first time 3 of us hang out together... =) Main purpose was for l4d2, haha!! And also, we watched a movie...

I think it's ok, but Hoe & Addi said it's rather not worthy... =P

I thank God for Addison's return to BB... After Jason's departure to US, I started to feel very tired in serving BB... In junior section, absence of a regular officer is like an arm chopped off... =.=" My batch was left with Kar Hoe & I...

Therefore I was so happy when one day Addi told me that he "got the feeling" to come back... Should be God's calling... =) Although he's not in the junior section, getting him to help up in the company in overall is just as encouraging... QUANTITY DOES MATTER!!

P.S. His drumming pro sial! XD

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27th of January 2010 (Wednesday):

够够力 LARRR~

At first we were afraid that we'll have phobia after watching the movie, so planned to watch "Woo Hoo"... However, "Woo Hoo" was too hot that there was no seat left... =.=" and the next thing I saw was 5 "Haunted Universities" tickets being printed out... @.@

We were actually late for the movie, as we took a lot of time in finding parking... Hence we'd missed the first 2 stories of the movie... Anyway, the movie didn't turn out to be as scary as I thought, haha! And like Choon Choon said, it even involves some values... XD

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感激月亮，否定太陽

2010-01-20T21:43:00.005+08:00

"被照顧到無微不至的人反而不會感恩，

因為當白天夠亮，太陽就是多餘的> > "。

有一則猶太故事說，有一天，有人問一位老先生，

太陽和月亮哪個比較重要。
那位老先生想了半天，

回答道：「是月亮，月亮比較重要。」
為什麼呢？
「因為月亮是在夜晚發光，

那是我們最需要光亮的時候，

而白天已經夠亮了，
太陽卻在那時候照耀。」
你或許會笑這位老先生糊塗，

但你不覺得很多人也是這樣嗎？
每天照顧你的人，你從不覺得有什麼，

若是陌生人這樣對你，你就認為他人真好；
你的父母、妻子或先生一直付出，

你總覺得理所當然，甚至還有得嫌；
一旦外人為你做出類似行為，

你就受寵若驚，你就會很感激。
這不是跟「感激月亮，否定太陽」一樣糊塗嗎？

有個女孩跟媽媽大吵了一架，氣得奪門而出，

決定再也不要回到這個討厭的家了!

一整天，她都在外面閒逛，

肚子餓得咕嚕咕嚕叫，

但偏偏又沒帶零用錢出來，

可又拉不下臉回家吃飯。

一直到了晚上，她來到一家麵攤旁，

聞到了陣陣的香味，真是好想吃一碗，

但身上又沒帶錢只能不住的吞口水。
忽然，老闆親切的問：「小姐，妳要不要吃麵啊？」

她不好意思的回答：「嗯！可是……我沒有帶錢……」

老闆聽了大笑：「哈哈，沒關係，今天就算老闆請客吧！」
女孩簡直不敢相信自己的耳朵，她坐下來。

不一會兒，麵來了，她吃得津津有味，

並說：「老闆，你人真好！」
老闆說：{哦？怎麼啦？}

女孩接著回答：「對啊！我們素不相識，你卻對我
那麼好，不像我媽，

根本不了解我的需要和想法，真氣人呢！」
老闆又笑了：「哈，小姐，我才不過給妳一碗麵而已，

妳就這麼感激我，
那麼妳媽媽幫妳煮了二十幾年的飯，

妳不是更應該感激她嗎？」
被老闆這麼一講，女孩頓時有如大夢初醒，

眼淚瞬間奪眶而出！
顧不得還剩下的半碗麵，立刻飛奔回家。

才到家門前的巷口，就遠遠的看到媽媽，

焦急的在門口四處張望，
她的心立刻揪在一起！

有一千句、一萬句的對不起想對媽媽說。
還沒來得及開口，只見媽媽已迎了上前：

「唉呦！妳一整天跑去那裡了啊？
嚇死我了！來，進來把手洗一洗，吃晚飯了。」
這天晚上，這個女孩才深刻體會到媽媽對她的愛。

太陽一直都在，人就忘了它給的光亮，當親人一直都在，
人就會忘了他們給的溫暖；

一個被照顧到無微不至的人
反而不會去感恩，

因為白天已經夠亮了，太陽不是多餘的嗎？

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I wish you spent some time reading that, because it's simple yet a meaningful one... This is actually from an email which I'd got few days back from my cousin...

It actually leading me to a lot of thoughts... I just realised that it's so true & suitable in reflecting my life... Be it the people that I appreciate, or how am I being appreciated...

It changed my mindset. =)

I've Met...

2010-01-07T23:38:00.004+08:00

STANLEY!!

Stanley Soh... XD

My Cup Of Tea

2010-01-05T20:35:00.009+08:00

I wish you are looking at this post healthily, as I'm gonna share about girls which I think are pretty in this post!! =D

P.S. I'm not being desperate or horny at the moment... =.=" I actually got inspired to make this post after seeing a message by Nelson on Facebook just now...

"I think that in love with female artist/celebrity is better than in love with the real girl." - Nelson -

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Well, I don't wish to discuss or write an essay over that issue now, but I gotta admit that it just always happen to me!! XD

There are some female artists over these years that I've keep an eye on... They may not be the most pretty ones, but to me, what attracts me are their 气质!! =D

First on the list... I think most of you know about this...

陈法拉

Haha! She caught my attention ever since she took part in the beauty contest few years back... Was kinda shock but happy when she signed contract with TVB, as I'm able to see her more often because of that... =D

Secondly,

侯佩岑

I didn't really admire her and catch up every of her news... However, her prettiness is undeniable & generally acknowledged!! Perhaps she's more to "dream girl" kind of status, to me... XD

Next,

Theresa

I always forget how to pronounce her chinese name... =.=" Anyway, she's ex-"Cookies" (a girls' group from Hong Kong)... She's just very special in the way she looked, but I advice you not to listen to her songs, haha!

Last & most recently...

Jessica!!

Girls' Generation, a group that I think all the boys nowadays know... The first time I see her, she gave me a feeling that she's a mixture of 侯佩岑 & Theresa, what you think?

Well, what attracts me the most is her "natural beauty"... =) Of course, her cuteness, her dance & her singing are killing me too!! XD

She looks particularly "my cup of tea" after she started to keep her long silky hair... ^^

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Before I end this post, just would like to share a video of Jessica... I think she looks better naturally than posing for photos...

Cute right? XD

One more video for you, SNSD's version of "Sorry Sorry"!!

Did Sica's ending pose kills you? =)

P.S. It kills me!! Hahahaha...

Finally It's Time

2010-01-03T20:02:00.009+08:00

The youth centre is coming down in March... =/

As the start of the year, we did a BIG clean-up and shifting, to Menara Wesley!! It marks the day where 1stKL BB changes its territory...

First, of course we'll have to start off with our "headquarter" - the office!! XD

@.@

Look! If you remembered, there used to be a cupboard there! FYI, all the cupboards have been shifted to Menara!! Not an easy task, but it's very fun! XD

Found this box, not sure how many there are & what they're for... =.="

Main highlight of the day...

... the shifting of trophies!! @.@

Seriously, there is not enough place for us to display all the trophies that 1stKL have won in these 55 years... FYI, we even thrown some of them who are spoilt & "make use" of some of them, haha!!

Therefore, we finally decided to...

... keep most of them in the cabinet!! =D

Cabinet 1

Cabinet 2

Cabinet 3

The only ones who are displayed... It's because we couldn't look for any other suitable place to fit them, haha!!

To show our low-profile-ness, we even sealed the cabinets!! XD

Definitely, 1stKL in the past 55 years had been so great!! At this point, I'm not talking 1stKL in terms of gaining trophies only, but also shaping so many leaders who serve in the society, churches and of course the BB companies...

Hopefully the trophies will not stop coming in especially in this another year of Pesta!! =D Let the shift this time round also mark the day that we've thrown away all the bad ones & start afresh!!

Time to say bye to my second home... T.T

As you could see, there electrical supply has been cut off... @.@

I'm definitely gonna miss this place which I learnt music, where I played ping-pong after school all the way till late evening, which provides the stage where I can lay on when I was tired...

Countless memories~~

Happy Birthday!

2009-12-30T16:16:00.010+08:00

Happy birthday to Shao~

His birthday actually fell on 31st, same with CCM eh?! We sort of celebrated since Wong Kok provides free drink... XD

Spot the gigantic 奶茶? I drank 3-4 cups of that & ended up had a terrible insomnia last night!! =.=" Guess what time I fell asleep, 6.30am!! HAHAHAHA... It was after Liverpool vs Aston Villa... Interesting match, because luck was on Liverpool's side!! =D

"Yea la, lucky only Liverpool..." -mostly by manu fans-

Well, I think it's time for luck to be on Liverpool's side... I believe people who catch up Liverpool's games would agree with me, it was way too unlucky in the first half of the season!! >.< Sometimes I got pissed off with the results but I found no reason, because the players were already working very hard + there were more than 10 injuries in the team?!

Back to yesterday night... Had a great but short moment with these people:

Moral Seah, Me, Ki-yun, Hot Lau, Sergeant Tneh

Ki-yun wasn't a prefect, so he doesn't have such creative nicknames, given by Alvin!! Gosh, I miss that fella... Not sure why couldn't reach his phone, but got to know he's in Nottingham, Semenyih now...

P.S. My nickname is too "gorgeous" to be named out... XD

Watched "Treasure Hunter"... It's about a story with Jay Chou's act-cool-ness, 林志玲's prettiness & most importantly, there's no 'treasure'... =.="

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Woke up 9am today, but still not feeling sleepy at the moment!! Oh no~

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-26T11:58:00.006+08:00

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow~

Pavilion ROCKED!!
Madam Kwan ROCKED!!
Coffee Bean #@$%*&?!

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Lee Yong Dae ROCKED!!

Let's play badminton with Yong Dae... =)

19/12/2009 (Saturday)

2009-12-24T16:06:00.020+08:00

Taylor's Lakeside Campus:

It's REAL... I've visited... =.="

In the midst of looking for uni currently... So far visited Taylor's & UCSI... If I really get into Taylor's, I'm starting my uni next month!! @.@

Anyway, the lakeside campus is just as cool as shopping malls... =.=" What more there were free buffet during the Campus Day~

Some artwork produced by their school of hospitality...

In case you couldn't get it, they are being carved on fruits!! @.@

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1stKL's Christmas Party:

BB & GB combined
My 1st experience playing a bass guitar in a worship team =)
Met 1stKL old friend - Samuel Das
Didn't involve much in the party, was chatting with Sam more instead =P

THE BIGGEST APPETITE COMPETITION

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Kuala Lumpur World Marching Band Competition (KLWMBC) 2009:

A very sudden plan... I'd just got to know the final is at that night, in the evening!! XD

It's a competition that I've never miss ever since they held it at KL... Well, the main purpose is of course to watch Asma & the Thai bands... =)

The Champ (Part 1)

The Champ (Part 2)

Asma 1

Asma 2

1st runner-up - Chonkanyanukoon School Marching Band (Thailand)
2nd runner-up - Sultanah Asma Marching Band (Malaysia)

P.S. Hopefully I didn't miss out any letter for the Thai band... XD

In case you didn't realise, some band members of Asma fell down during the performance of their band... So unfortunate!! =/ I bet the one who tripped is already crying day & night...

Some of their formations repeated... Anyway, I was always delighted to watch their performance... =) GIRL'S POWER~

They're truly 马来西亚之光, Malaysia Boleh man!!

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I'd got out of home everyday ever since finishing the last exam paper... Finally I've jumped out from the "宅男" life!! XD Well, that's after 1 & half year... =.="

Till this Monday, it's my first day staying at home for the whole day... =) Went for a swim... Felt so good to be in the pool again...

PPS in my computer is finally being activated!! =D Currently watching 绝代商骄... And I really gotta say this:

阿佘你好靓啊！

Erican (Part 3)

2009-12-22T11:57:00.013+08:00

This will be the last part about Erican... =/

The job finally ended last Friday, with competitons & party @International Youth Centre...

... and a meal @大同 =)

3 weeks programme came to an end...
Took quite a number of photos on the Thursday, which is the last day they had classes...

Room 7

They played these everyday... =P

=)

Our dedicated teacher- Shan... XD This boy turned up to be very rude & rebellious on the last few days, wonder why... =.="

Qing Rong!! CCM's favourite boy, in fact most of us like him so much... Brave enough to tell a story on the stage, with just the age of 5!!

What about Shan's favourite student? =P Well, she doesn't really have one...

... but she's definitely the students' favourite!! For what reason? *ahem* XD

See!

This girl even sent her invitation 'letter' for her birthday party... which is held in the month of June!! HAHAHAHA...

She said this boy very handsome, so must take photo with him... =.="

Judge it, haha!!

Both of them fought for some reason...

Another fans of Shan, Xiao Ting... =)

=P

They tie hair for each other... XD

These 2 are also fans of her... =.="

Spotted him... @.@

I acted I was sms-ing, haha!! So he didn't realise... =P

He 'miaow's loudly whenever he sees cat... XD

Sometimes I'm really curious to know what are they thinking...

For him, I think he's having some tooth problem, haha!!

Was trying to record how naughty Zi Ming is... Too bad his maid arrived and picked him & Xiao Ting up...

Start missing them already... T.T

5th of Dec 09 (Saturday)

2009-12-15T20:26:00.014+08:00

KUL Games 09:

Took part in futsal again!!

Silver... =/

I'm not here to 晒命 or what... In fact I'm really sad for getting only silver... Probably that's the trauma for losing in the final? It's my 2nd silver medal for futsal man... T.T

Anyway, for this time round, I think I've contributed more compared to the previous competitions... =) Afterall, I couldn't be sad with the result also... As I think back, WE ONLY HAD ONE PRACTICE!! =.=" God's decision is always right!

Failed to grab the overall champion from 3rdKL this time round, almost all the competitions got 2nd placing/silver~ Anyway, congrats to 3rdKL once again!

Keep up the spirit as we will be back PREPARED next time round!! =D

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Shan's 19th Birthday:

=D

Weiyi's 2nd house... @.@

"Ok... I say 1, 2, 3 we push the cake to her face ya..." -Hunt-

Eyu with the cartoon-ised expression whisper: "Don't you dare..."

=)

傻婆 XD

Had barbecue that night...

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One more thing on that day actually... Something very important that I've missed!!

They were here again!!

The first time they came here I went to see them... Second time at PGRM missed, due to major exam... =.=" Thought that I was able to attend this time round, but Shan's birthday plan turned up to be on that day! Due to priority, missed again... =/

Therefore, sorry once again to Jiunn, for ffk-ing him the second time... He's also a die hard fans of Jane!! Roar~ And he shared some of his "achievements" with me after that... =P

He said he shook her hand!! @.@ How could he, argh...

And he's sad because her sign on this is blur & shallow... Unlike...

Yuming's!! >.<

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This post seems a little late & simple... Too bad la, these things happened 10days ago and I must be missing a lot of parts that are worth sharing...

It's due to the reason that I was searching the photos taken on that day... =P As you could see, till now I couldn't get any photo of KUL Games yet, haha! Anyway, hopefully they'll be up on facebook soon... =)

Erican (Part 2)

2009-12-10T21:22:00.013+08:00

Perhaps I'm now more use to the environment and jobs allocated... XD

One of jobs is to take care of the children in Room7 at 1.20pm... Room7 consists of the youngest children who are mostly 5 years old! We'll have to sort of "baby-sit" the children for 20minutes as their teacher is leaving early...

Sounds so great right?! Well, the condition is something like this...

Taadaa... =.="

*Sorry for the blurriness of the photo, I'm not sure whether I shook my hand or they caused the earthquake... =P*

As you can see, Shan (yellow) was teaching a boy to do his homework, the rest of the children are BASICALLY making noise, playing with the "educational toys", jumping, crawling & fighting around... =.="

Not forgetting another corner...

CCM, was trying his very best to educate a one/two boys who are still willing to "choi" us...

Puzzles!!

Right after this shot, I decided to stop taking photo of them... It's because there's a boy who realised start crawling around and hide under the chairs... =.=" Just to avoid the situation deteriorate, I stopped...

"Teacher, teacher, teacher..."

"抱抱，抱抱!"

In fact there are so many more cute children in Room7 but it's not easy to capture the great moments... =/

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Hmm... What do we do the rest of the time? Basically nothing hard... XD Our main concern is on the younger children, regarding transport & safety... And also, any other jobs in the tuition centre other than teaching, e.g. photostat, paperwork, wash cups? so on...

Most importantly, we had fun!! XD Recently addicted to CCM's Aussie slang, it's just too funny to me!!

I don't think he knew I took this, haha!!

P.S. Spot Shan's 观音手.

The most funny part is not only listen to the reading, but also look at his confident + cute hand gestures & Shan's expression!! It's because Shan would be like a 牛, giving the expression that not willing to listen at all...

Then the situation will be like 对牛弹琴, hahahaha...

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Sorry mates for the lack of updating... I was actually thinking to update about KUL Games + Shan's birthday, but not many photos available at the moment... =/

Yes, for no reason I'm not updating this blog... I'M JUST TO FREE!! XD

Work Work Work

2009-12-04T20:32:00.013+08:00

1st Day @KLCC:

KLCC

Pavilion 1

Pavilion 2

*Sungei Wang*

Not worth a shot... =.="

Times Square

Don't misunderstand, I wasn't out of topic!! =D Those were the places I passed by on the way back home... =.=" Yes, Kee An & I walked from KLCC all the way to Hang Tuah LRT station!! Woohoo~

I went for a job interview on Tuesday at KLCC... Erm, I should rephrase it to: I got employed just after I filled in the form... =.=" Well, it's because the interviewer requested me to go for the training even before I started to talk... It's for the position of BANQUET, which I don't like at all!! Was attracted due the the saying that "earning RM90 per day"...

I was wondering then... "RM90 per day so easy to earn one ah?"

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2nd Day @KLCC:

According to my knowledge in Business Studies, I'd attended an induction training... =.="

They welcomed me warmly... =D

After the orientation, we went for a tour over the working places, which is around the convention centre la! After that, had a lunch at the canteen...

Due to the "tak-boleh tahanness", we sneaked out to Aquaria which is just nearby...

I forced him to do this, haha!! Introducing, Robert Ng...

Nemos

Seahorses

Don't know what's this called... =.=" Right, just get back to the training...

I've to clarify first, I'm not being racist at this point... There were malays all around the working place!! Imagine, there were only 5-6 chinese among the 80 people who got trained? Tell you what, some of the chinese even speaks in malay!! And the "manyzer"s despite what race, speaks in MALAY!! @.@

P.S. Probably only a few person understand the reason I called them "manyzer"

Therefore, Kim Soon, An, and I were a bit like aliens over there... =.=" I was already wondering how to survive until 5pm once the training started at 9am...

Finally, phew~

Tell you what, I went to reload my phone on that day and there goes my RM30... =.="

Anyway, I don't think I'm gonna work there la... The rules are too strict (5 star services!!) & procedures to be followed are plenty... Just being frank, why would I have to torture myself in work like this while I still have many other choices outside?

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Erican Tuition Centre:

I really can't talk much about this new job of mine... I've just started it today and many things are kinda "new" to me in a sense... =P

Obviously, I'm not that good to be a teacher over there yet... I was told that my main job is to take care of the children, that's all... XD One good thing about this job is to have CCM & Shan as my colleagues!!

We went to Ajinomoto factory today!! =D

Look at the aggressiveness!! @.@

They provided us free food that's cooked with their product... Erm, you gotta imagine that, whole plate of Ajinomoto!! And the students kept asking for more... =.="

A group picture before we left... The woman was the emcee of the day...

Afterall, we didn't manage to get into the real factory where the advanced machines are placed and being functioning... T.T The whole trip basically is watching slides, questions & answers... How pathetic?!

I shall discover more fun from this job in the coming days... =) This job doesn't last long though...

P.S. Shan loves children crazily... =.="

Camps

2009-12-02T22:16:00.014+08:00

Yea, maybe some of you knew this... I've attended 2 camps in a week, in the previous week... @.@ Let me start with the more recent one...

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27 - 28th of November 2009:

1stKL Junior's Achievement Camp

Hmm... Basically this is a camp for the boys to catch up their syllabus in various awards & have fun (that's the main purpose of camping, duh...) Fortunately, the syllabus of the awards are rather interesting and therefore some interesting sessions are being slotted in... =D

Leadership training... @.@

Cooking competition!! FYI, the boys went down to UO to shop for their ingredients that were needed in the cooking competition in the afternoon... And we started cooking in the evening...

This picture tells all... Derek da group leader was scratching head & CM da officer was cooking... XD

Lesson on song leading + demonstration... =)

And also, I'd conducted a games leading session in the first night... Amazingly, the senior boys are absorbing very fast and managed to lead an interesting game after that... @.@ Looks like I'll really have to make some plan out for the normal meeting games session, hehe...

Let's move on to 2nd day... Due to the "strain" we had on the first day, we changed most of the activities in the afternoon to the normal BB meeting programmes...

During the drill time, Kar Hoe & I ran a drill down for the juniors... @.@ I was amazed by the junior boys once again!! Even some of the pre-juniors managed to stay in the final team before we ended the drill session!! =D

It was the closing ceremoney cum dinner after that, parents joined in...

... for singspiration...

... and games led by their children!!

Sean Ho receiving his certificate...

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23 - 25th of November 2009:

Senior section band camp

*No photos available*

I gotta be honest first of all that I did not commit to this camp much... It's mainly due to my absence in senior band for long & there were many professional instructors around... =P And FYI, I was the only "officer" around on the first day... =.="

Well, there were many new things happened in the band... New band drill - Japanese style, new songs, new members, new instructors... @.@ Therefore, I decided to let the band to do their own stuff and concentrate more on the discipline of the boys...

Not going to elaborate more on that... I believe necessary advice & guidance have been given... Just hoping for a change now... =)

A BIT OF ALL RIGHT

没有你的日子（六）

没有你的日子（五）

没有你的日子（四）

没有你的日子（三）

没有你的日子（二）

没有你的日子（一）

害羞

释义

基本解释

详细解释

什么是“爱情”/现代爱情

Kasih Sayang

双鱼座 - My Horoscope

会因爱情改变自己的星男

所谓的假期

Calling off a day

3 John

成长。。

New friend in FB

你的一声呵斥虽出自本能，但也吓了一个天才。许多父母都会犯错这样的错误，他们总是以自己的经验来约束孩子的好奇心，于是孩子踏上的也只能是和父母一样的道路。

說了又不聽→聾， 聽了又不懂→笨， 不懂又不問→啞 ， 問了又不做→懶， 做了又做錯→蠢， 錯了又不認→瞎 ，認了又不改→驢， 改了又不服→爛 ， 不服又不說→賤

I find them really interesting, perhaps I should keep this friend though I really have no idea who's she, haha! XD

Holiday 1 & 2

Money

Again

My Raya Holiday

Helpless (2)

Helpless

Something

Woo~

爱很简单

Tioman

Change

Penang!

致爸爸的一封信

Mother's Day 2010

Need A Chat

Labour Day, Awards Day... Saturday!!

23 - 24/4/2010

玩你的人和爱你的人区别

我很“牛”

Oink!

Hotel Room Service

Swam

A Happy Day?!

The Amazing Run

Faces Today

My Gang (1)

Big Days

Chor 2

Spending TIme With You!

I Still Remember

Packed Week!

感激月亮，否定太陽

I've Met...

My Cup Of Tea

Finally It's Time

Happy Birthday!

Merry Christmas!

19/12/2009 (Saturday)

Erican (Part 3)

5th of Dec 09 (Saturday)

Erican (Part 2)

Work Work Work

Camps

說了又不聽→聾，聽了又不懂→笨，不懂又不問→啞，問了又不做→懶，做了又做錯→蠢，錯了又不認→瞎，認了又不改→驢，改了又不服→爛，不服又不說→賤