爱很简单

忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你
有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单

爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日也去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......

I LOVE YOU
无法不爱你 BABY
说你也爱我
I LOVE YOU
永远不愿意 BABY
失去你

不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单

爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日也去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......
I LOVE YOU
我一直在这里 BABY
一直在爱你
I LOVE YOU, YES I DO
永远都不放弃
这爱你的权利

如果你还有一些困惑
OH NO
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着
爱你
YES I DO

Tioman

What do you think about having a holiday like this?

Anyway the trip was good! I was there with another 17 classmates, one boyfriend + one very cool tour guide called Albert... He's damn cool because he could drink all day long and beat me flat for pool... =.="

A stop on the way to the jetty

We were taking midnight bus and the photo was taken at about 2am... Just when I was about to fall asleep, the driver stopped at this mamak... Anyway, you can see my classmates were still energetic, enjoying their tea & 'cho di' session... =.="

Another scenery of Tioman

I wouldn't go into details on this trip, too lazy to, ha! I've abandoned this blog for quite some time and I find it rather difficult for me to start typing again about my life... To summarise, activities for this trip were: snorkeling, waterfall, beach volleyball, fish feeding, drinking, watching football, gambling... hahaha!

Recently, I'd been praying a lot on getting clearer directions in my life... After this trip, I find that God is just so amazing and my prayers were answered... I've got my mind so relax throughout the trip & shared my feelings to some friends... After the problems were shared, I started realising that some of them are not as bad as I thought actually?

Nice place for photograph... Also, the place that I miss the most due to specific reason...

Changes

It's rather late right now but my mind is still awake..

I feel that the finals that I'm having now came at a very wrong timing... I was having Pesta during the study break and recently I was informed that my bro, Addison is leaving to Perlis on 4th of July.. BBQ party this Sunday but unfortunately that's a really crucial time for me to focus on next day's exam... Rejected your invitation, sorry bro!

Another news that I've just got was from brother Jason.. I wasn't really surprise with your decision but felt sorry that I won't be able to witness the historical moment... Yes, I'm not attending this year's enrolment..

In another words, I'm not enrolling this year... Making this decision is a hard one for me as I enrolled as a member of 1stKL ever since joining BB in 2004... I choose not to now because I can't assure that I'll be attending BB meetings regularly in the coming days... I wonder what "enrolment" means to most of you, but I'm taking it very seriously... If I'm not able to commit, I will choose not to enrol... After all, it's a promise to God, in front of everyone...

Reason behind, I don't know how well and how long more I can stay in the junior section... I would say, I've never do well in the junior section and sometimes, I don't even feel like to... Yes, I love kids.. However, my life every Saturday now is so not "BB" to me anymore... I joined BB initially because of the activities in the senior section... I admit, I've lost "myself" during my time in the junior section... I was just doing something which I don't like every Saturday and I feel that I'm actually wasting everyone's time... Being a full-time junior officer even during Pesta preparations is disastrous to me seriously... Even I'm being put into the senior section now immediately, I don't think I can cope well, because I've lost my passion...

I'm not sure.. I start to wonder whether I've changed... I feel that I'm so weak sometimes because I get affected by the environment and people around me easily... I was never like that during the secondary school time... I looked back at some of my secondary school photos and I saw that I was once the man who could take on anything in the world... Felt so proud of the old me...

2010 has been a really really tough year to me... Grandma passed away, quarrelled BIG with dad, etc... Even now as you can see, this blog has become so dull and emo... I was trying to stand out from these, but I just failed again and again...


P.S. Jason, I'm very touched by your recent post on blog... I'm sorry, probably I'll need a break from all these..

Penang!

The bridge




The end of the bridge =P




Band final rehearsal




Penang's 牛腩面




Penang's Ramly, with marvelous marketing strategy... =.="




Kar Hoe being forced to cut hair... And that's where we ended up... XD




During the rehearsal of opening ceremonry




The beginning of the opening ceremony




4thKL band - did a strong performance for first timer!




Warm-up before entering the battlefield




Our very cool percussion line




Not forgetting, the drum major - SGT Benny Tham




Penang's famous traditional biscuits selling shop




Reli 'heng heong'!! XD




Derek the one credit finish game shooter & Choon Meng, who LOOKS very pro =P




This happens every midnight... very tired! >.<




The closing ceremony

I don't have much to say, but the memories preserved...

致爸爸的一封信

就如我先前答应的，会写一封信给您。那天我真的在赶功课，我答一句，您又骂回几句，实在讲不到话。外婆去世那几天，其实我有好多assignment要赶，所以一下子堆集了很多功课还没有做。

“天下没有不疼子女的父母”我明白这个道理。但我也想让您知道，天下没有一个孩子是天生就爱反抗父母的。其实最近我明白了另一样东西，就是许多人都最容易与家人吵架，而不是身边其它的人，是因为许多人都最在乎家人对自己的看法。所以，当所谓的“误会”在家里产生了，骂架一定骂得很凶，因为双方都很想对方明白，并接受自己的看法。

我不知道您读着这封信时有没有一点伤感，我有一点。是因为我必须用写信的方式来跟自己的爸爸沟通，与爸爸的沟通方面真的出现了很大的问题。既然我们面对面真的沟通不来，我希望您会用心去读完我接下来写的东西。

我小时候很爱讲话，跟家人更是没有什么避忌的话题。但当我长大，慢慢地明白事理，更加了解您的时候，我真的没有勇气跟您商量事情了。看到您如何因为一些小事而把家人臭骂一顿，我时常都不出声。不是因为我怕您骂我，是因为我还想保留我心里对您的那一点尊重；是因为我知道，不论我说什么来解释给您听，你都还会臭骂我一顿，导致全家人更加不开心。就如当您问我们电脑的问题时，我们解释了以后，您居然不同意且还骂回我们。就连您不熟悉的东西您都要跟我们吵。

关于电脑的事，还有一个我不喜欢教您的原因是，很浪费时间。因为我必须要冒着被您骂的风险，而且在自己不得空的时候教您。看到自己的爸爸有这种“活到老，学到老”的精神，有哪一个孩子是不开心的？但您命令家人做东西方式就是那种，“我要你做，你就立刻要做”的。有时您还在我不得空的时候，叫我陪您出去做东西。您有没有尊敬过其他人的选择呢？我们是您的家人，请别把我们当成您公司的伙计。譬如我说要迟一点才做一样东西，您总会骂我说“自己的东西都不理！”其实我不是不理，我是已经安排好了几时要做那件事，且相信那会是自己最空闲，把事情做到最好的时间。

“虎父无犬子”其实很多时候您应该明白，我身为您的儿子，您的脾气不好，我的脾气也不会好到去哪里。这也就是您通常知道我在想什么的原因。但我必须说，有时您却没有站在我的立场想过。当我在大学里面塞车塞了半小时不动时，您叫我等一下；可是当您自己看到某条路多车时，您居然可以硬硬地做一个U-Turn。那天我为了您那几句话，我用了两小时多，饿着肚子回家。加上早上的一小时，我总共花了三个小时多在马路上。您自己也是一个没耐性的驾车人士，如果有人叫您这样继续塞车，您又愿意吗？是在大学里，不会动，可以关掉引擎的那种！

一天只有那24小时，我真的不想花那么多时间在无谓的塞车。这也就是其中一个我要搬出来住的理由。可能您会想问，为什么我时常那么迟才要回家。我想让您知道，澳洲课程就是如此，assignment时常都堆在一段时期要你交。许多assignment都是团体的，不是一个人的功课。您一声“家庭温暖”和“省钱”，我可必须如牛般，迟睡早起，塞车，压力，以致您看到的满脸暗疮。

以我所言，这家庭我继续长住下去的话，会更加的不温暖。我必须讲出一个残酷的事实 - 我在这个家庭找不到温暖。再这样若无其事地住下去，我迟早又要跟您骂大架。搬出去住，至少可以让我更珍惜这个家，也希望会让您更珍惜我和家人的存在。再说，我又不是不回家。每个拜五正常来说我都会回家。

说到钱，又是一个敏感的话题。从小，我都很害怕要向您讨钱，也时常买不到自己想要的东西。所以这次搬出去住，我早已决定了用自己的钱来解决。放心，我不会向您要更多的零用钱。在此，我也想表达下我的看法。我知道钱的重要性，没有钱当然是万万不能的。不过，感觉上这个家时常都为钱烦恼，您会不会把钱看得太重呢？时常都看您在问姐姐关于她工作的事，都不见您关心下我大学的事情，或多体谅下妈妈。难道我们的人生是只为了金钱而活，那么无谓吗？这世界还有一样很奥妙的东西叫“亲情”。它是一样用金钱买不到的东西，就算是一个百万富翁花了很多钱在家人身上，也不能代表他很有亲情。我在BB看见很多关心自己孩子学习进展的父母，而我却只有一个问我‘BB有没有给奖学金’的爸爸，您说我会不会觉得心酸呢？

还有一样我觉得很让我想不透的是“信任”。从小到大，我都感受不到您对我的信任。我说什么，您都好像不信似的。我自认我没有什么讲骗话，有时甚至诚实到连朋友都会骂我傻的。我有骗过您，不过都是一些不重要的事情，骗那些事情都是因为不要您太担心。最后一次骗您的“大件事”，应该是我跌电脑辞典，骗您没有跌的那次。您可以回想看，我连去马六甲旅行没去上课一天，我都诚实地告诉了您。可是您就是不相信我做的决定。现在给您知道，那天真的不到十个人上课，老师没有什么教书，另外一个老师还请了病假。爸爸，我连蚂蚁都不舍得杀，您却把我想成是个不孝子，可以把您杀掉那种。信任呢？

我那天BB meeting到很迟，没有吃到晚餐，想要吃了晚餐才回，才导致迟回家。我不喜欢的，并不是你们打电话来“关心”我，而是你们的责问 – “为什么这样夜还不要回来！”我真的很饿，想要吃了才回。为了不要你们太担心，我还特地要求朋友陪我到靠近家的地方吃。我也不想你们怪BB meet到那么迟，因为我不想你们对BB有不好的印象。我真的没有到处乱跑，请不要过度担心。难道你们真的想要有一天我变得满口谎言您才甘愿吗？

您常说做的东西是要我好，那我也想给您一个忠告。请您不要在家里面吸烟。以您现在的年纪，我听到的很多人都开始戒烟了。舒解压力的方法有成千上万种，请不要用那么不健康的方法。另一个原因是，我们吸二手烟的危害会比您更大，简单来说，比您更短命。希望您在家里点一支烟时，会考虑到这一点。

希望您不会把这篇东西看作是怨言。我只想跟您沟通，让您更了解我在想些什么。我没有资格说您错，更没有资格要您道歉。我说出这一些，是希望您能多广阔您的思想，站在另外一个立场想想。请容许我好好地尊重您，爱惜您！

Ah Boy.