Something

I don't feel like letting many people to know this initially.. I typed something previously, but in the end I deleted... Now that I think, not many people will read this inactive blog anymore, and probably you'd only glance thru this blog once or twice and not anymore.. So I'll do it this time round..

I know you don't feel good recently, so do I (I didn't manage to hide my emotions at all)... Insomnia has been bothering me for more than a month, mainly due to the same matter... Recently it has been especially serious, slept only 1 hour last night, all the way till now... Nowadays I've been always seeking for something to waste a lot energy on, sports have been my favourite.. I really have got no choice, I tried cool down and think... but ended up I dropped tears, automatically.. Therefore, I'll have to make myself to almost-faint condition before going to bed everyday...

I wish I could do it like normal, just like I did in the beginning... However, I just realised that it couldn't be the way... If I continue to do so, I will only fall in love more & more.. get hurt deeper & deeper... Very sorry, I chose to be selfish, just to make sure myself can let go everything in the shortest time I could do... I think I had never love someone so deep before, what more it's on a girl which didn't seem to be 'the-girl-I-want'... It's all depend on feelings.. VERY strong feelings...

Sorry, just give me some time.. I will try to make everything back to 'normal'..