Something

I don't feel like letting many people to know this initially.. I typed something previously, but in the end I deleted... Now that I think, not many people will read this inactive blog anymore, and probably you'd only glance thru this blog once or twice and not anymore.. So I'll do it this time round..

I know you don't feel good recently, so do I (I didn't manage to hide my emotions at all)... Insomnia has been bothering me for more than a month, mainly due to the same matter... Recently it has been especially serious, slept only 1 hour last night, all the way till now... Nowadays I've been always seeking for something to waste a lot energy on, sports have been my favourite.. I really have got no choice, I tried cool down and think... but ended up I dropped tears, automatically.. Therefore, I'll have to make myself to almost-faint condition before going to bed everyday...

I wish I could do it like normal, just like I did in the beginning... However, I just realised that it couldn't be the way... If I continue to do so, I will only fall in love more & more.. get hurt deeper & deeper... Very sorry, I chose to be selfish, just to make sure myself can let go everything in the shortest time I could do... I think I had never love someone so deep before, what more it's on a girl which didn't seem to be 'the-girl-I-want'... It's all depend on feelings.. VERY strong feelings...

Sorry, just give me some time.. I will try to make everything back to 'normal'..

爱很简单

忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你
有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单

爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日也去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......

I LOVE YOU
无法不爱你 BABY
说你也爱我
I LOVE YOU
永远不愿意 BABY
失去你

不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单

爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日也去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......
I LOVE YOU
我一直在这里 BABY
一直在爱你
I LOVE YOU, YES I DO
永远都不放弃
这爱你的权利

如果你还有一些困惑
OH NO
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着
爱你
YES I DO

Tioman

What do you think about having a holiday like this?

Anyway the trip was good! I was there with another 17 classmates, one boyfriend + one very cool tour guide called Albert... He's damn cool because he could drink all day long and beat me flat for pool... =.="

A stop on the way to the jetty

We were taking midnight bus and the photo was taken at about 2am... Just when I was about to fall asleep, the driver stopped at this mamak... Anyway, you can see my classmates were still energetic, enjoying their tea & 'cho di' session... =.="

Another scenery of Tioman

I wouldn't go into details on this trip, too lazy to, ha! I've abandoned this blog for quite some time and I find it rather difficult for me to start typing again about my life... To summarise, activities for this trip were: snorkeling, waterfall, beach volleyball, fish feeding, drinking, watching football, gambling... hahaha!

Recently, I'd been praying a lot on getting clearer directions in my life... After this trip, I find that God is just so amazing and my prayers were answered... I've got my mind so relax throughout the trip & shared my feelings to some friends... After the problems were shared, I started realising that some of them are not as bad as I thought actually?

Nice place for photograph... Also, the place that I miss the most due to specific reason...

Changes

It's rather late right now but my mind is still awake..

I feel that the finals that I'm having now came at a very wrong timing... I was having Pesta during the study break and recently I was informed that my bro, Addison is leaving to Perlis on 4th of July.. BBQ party this Sunday but unfortunately that's a really crucial time for me to focus on next day's exam... Rejected your invitation, sorry bro!

Another news that I've just got was from brother Jason.. I wasn't really surprise with your decision but felt sorry that I won't be able to witness the historical moment... Yes, I'm not attending this year's enrolment..

In another words, I'm not enrolling this year... Making this decision is a hard one for me as I enrolled as a member of 1stKL ever since joining BB in 2004... I choose not to now because I can't assure that I'll be attending BB meetings regularly in the coming days... I wonder what "enrolment" means to most of you, but I'm taking it very seriously... If I'm not able to commit, I will choose not to enrol... After all, it's a promise to God, in front of everyone...

Reason behind, I don't know how well and how long more I can stay in the junior section... I would say, I've never do well in the junior section and sometimes, I don't even feel like to... Yes, I love kids.. However, my life every Saturday now is so not "BB" to me anymore... I joined BB initially because of the activities in the senior section... I admit, I've lost "myself" during my time in the junior section... I was just doing something which I don't like every Saturday and I feel that I'm actually wasting everyone's time... Being a full-time junior officer even during Pesta preparations is disastrous to me seriously... Even I'm being put into the senior section now immediately, I don't think I can cope well, because I've lost my passion...

I'm not sure.. I start to wonder whether I've changed... I feel that I'm so weak sometimes because I get affected by the environment and people around me easily... I was never like that during the secondary school time... I looked back at some of my secondary school photos and I saw that I was once the man who could take on anything in the world... Felt so proud of the old me...

2010 has been a really really tough year to me... Grandma passed away, quarrelled BIG with dad, etc... Even now as you can see, this blog has become so dull and emo... I was trying to stand out from these, but I just failed again and again...


P.S. Jason, I'm very touched by your recent post on blog... I'm sorry, probably I'll need a break from all these..

Penang!

The bridge




The end of the bridge =P




Band final rehearsal




Penang's 牛腩面




Penang's Ramly, with marvelous marketing strategy... =.="




Kar Hoe being forced to cut hair... And that's where we ended up... XD




During the rehearsal of opening ceremonry




The beginning of the opening ceremony




4thKL band - did a strong performance for first timer!




Warm-up before entering the battlefield




Our very cool percussion line




Not forgetting, the drum major - SGT Benny Tham




Penang's famous traditional biscuits selling shop




Reli 'heng heong'!! XD




Derek the one credit finish game shooter & Choon Meng, who LOOKS very pro =P




This happens every midnight... very tired! >.<




The closing ceremony

I don't have much to say, but the memories preserved...