Wednesday, May 16, 2012

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You know, the feeling just came and I feel like writing something here.. =P It's been awhile again, and it has been 6 months for you & I! <3 

Well, we don't really celebrate 'monthsary' kind of thing which somehow I feel kinda a-bit-too-much.. Similar like Mother's Day, if you don't appreciate your mum normally, it's meaningless for whatever you do on that day.. like what, posting a FB status say "I love you mum"? I'm just trying to say, our relationship doesn't need events or occasions to strengthen it, because it goes day-by-day!

*and my playlist has just switched to play "Can I Have This Dance", the song in the video you'd made =')*

I still remember for a period I was so empty and lonely, I prayed to God that He would provide me a good relationship, no matter how long it takes, just a good one.. and you came into my life. I didn't expect it to be so fast, but everything just came like.. it's the time!

After we got along & when I started to truly understand you from more than a friend, I realised we are from a total different world! I started to realise that our family backgrounds are so different, our sensitivity level are so different, our habits are so different.. and even the thing I thought we have in common - thoughts, are so different!

I was a bit worried then in the beginning, as I can't think of something which could make us stay close with each other.. I mean, aside from interests like Liverpool or.. The Sims Social? haha! Sometimes we quarrelled over little things which brought us to like end of the world, just hope that we would understand each other.. but I started to realise, those were the times which brought us closer, and closer to each other..

Adapting your way in my life is one of the toughest tasks I ever had! I didn't know one day I would include "yor!" in my sentences, just kidding.. =P but I guess that's what a big part of relationship is about - adapting each other's way.. Like I had mentioned to you before, I chose not to regret or even have a little thought of giving up this relationship whenever we quarrel, for I know that's not how our relationship should work and that's not what God would like to see..

Happy 6th 'monthsary'/'halfyearversary'! Haha.. I know it came a little late but assignments have caused us to be zombies few days back and I had got no inspiration to write at all... Hopefully this post would surprise you, at least a little... :$ Recently you have raised up concerns like after we start to work our meeting time would be much lesser.. but I believe that when there's a will, there's always a way.. Like how we connect to each other from a different world, we would get closer with every challenges we face! With you along throughout the journey, I'll not feel tired.

Looking forward to the many more '6 months' to come!



 Love you always, dear <3!

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Huan Weiyi

I love you!! <3

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

没有你的日子(六)

Dear,我今天重新振作了!

今天blog迟了。不过反正明天都blog不到,这就算作两天的吧!感觉自己有一点疯,每天在这里自己一个人讲话,哈哈!你今天sms来应该好贵哦!其实我回复你不贵,因为都算在你那边你知道吗?>.< 还好你没有一直问问题。

今天180度转变、重新振作的主要原因是因为妈妈对我说的一些话。感觉妈妈真的受苦了!我从今起一定要好好照顾她,一起把不开心的事全部抹去,我要让她幸福!就让你们俩做世界上最幸福的女人吧!

明天就要动手术了,都不知道之前医生说的“休息一个礼拜”真正的定义是什么。如果是不能出街的话,那我只能指望你来我家探望我了。好想、好想见见你,听听你的声音!我现在担心的其实不是明天的手术,我是一直在想着要怎样帮你check你的sims。如果明天晚上没有玩到的话,那个weekly prizes可能就会断了,拿不到免费的sim cash!之前我还在想着要怎样在医院度过那一晚,不过现在看来连电话都不能带去,我只能狂追《笑傲江湖》了。

刚才终于看了Avatar,很好看!周围的人都当我是疯了,笑我outdated,哈哈!如果你看到我的表情应该也会打我一下。

快点回来巴巴我吧!好想你。。<3

Sunday, December 11, 2011

没有你的日子(五)

三天没有得和你联络,是一个严峻的考验。

刚才和家人去了安邦吃鸡饭,然后到Starhill和Pavilion走走,真的很没有心情。一整个过程我都没有去正视家人,一直摆着那张丑脸。感觉自己很坏,伤到妈妈的心,不过还是情不自禁的继续沉默下去。她抓我的手的时候,我其实很想哭,大哭一场。

Dear,我真的不知道该怎么做了。。我还记得小时候我很黏父母。虽然很坏蛋,常常被打骂,不过还是会很喜欢跟他们在一起。不知道是不是因为开始懂事了,慢慢很顶不顺这个家- 一个没有信任、没有说话权力、没有用耳朵聆听的家。而且这个家把钱看得很重。他们常常以为出了一点钱,就是一种爱的表现,很少用心去了解一下孩子到底要的是什么。

就拿这次为例。其实我一直以来都说要看脚先,鼻子我是从来没有想过是酱严重,到要动手术的。不过从年头到现在年尾我说脚痛,他们都说是小事,没有看到医生。一开始痛时我说要看铁打,他们还说回我浪费钱,说一点点事情就看铁打。其实他们根本就不知道我的脚有几痛,就一口咬定我是小题大作。到后来有一次我自己去看了回来,那铁打佬都说,这些伤要早看,还问我为什么伤了这么久才看。结果我停futsal三个月了都还没有好,他们又赖我自己没有好好照顾,说我去跑步什么之类的。如果是酱的话,我不是永久都不能走楼梯了?所以过后我也放弃了。

还有那天无端端被骂头发。感觉上我就像是一个出气筒,他心情不好就可以找一个理由来大声喝骂我。被骂的内容可免则免,都是一些对狗骂的话和语气。他似乎完全不去尝试了解为什么我要留头发。其实上次和他吵大架后,我已经很不想留在这个家了。所以这次他又发癫,我简直不想应他一个字。可能就是这样,我这次真的心死了,完全不懂要怎样面对这个家。无奈就在于我怎样都摆脱不了要用他的东西。可能这让他觉得我还想要利用他,或贪图他钱之类的。

Dear,我真的撑得好累、好累了。。我不懂要怎么面对家里这三个人,不懂要说些什么的。

一个月之前的今天,我们在一起了。。很对不起,让你读了这些烦人的东西,让你拥有了一个不孝顺的男友。

Saturday, December 10, 2011

没有你的日子(四)

今天一整天都很纳闷啊!

父母现在在外头看着《舞极限》决赛。自己其实想看,不过基于很不想面对他们,又再一次锁自己在房间。其实今天一整天我都锁自己在房间,吃饭也等他们吃完我才出去吃。在这个家我真的很迷惑,已经开始有点不知道自己想要做什么、自己为何要这么做。继续下去,我好像会精神错乱。

看见你的部落格的歌词,不知道你post那时是不是在想着我,哈哈!不过,现在用它来形容我的感觉是很贴切的。刚刚和你通了电话,听到你的声音感觉真好!好像大旱逢甘霖,心情又好了许多。

好啦,要看球去。希望我们的球队今晚可以争气一点!<3